All Rights go to Cassandra Clare. Her books her characters ! everything IS HERSSSS . Sadly :(
Chapter 1 : Regrets
It was Cold outside, the snow had gone but the cold wind that makes you shiver didn't. I was nauseas the nervous nauseas that appeared whenever you see someone you were close to, for instance Jace. I wanted to tell him but I couldn't ; last time I tried was a weak ago , we were out at taki's where me , Jace Izzy and alec went every Saturday afternoon . We all ordered a coffee and usually I did , everyone questioned me why but I passed it off easily , instead I ordered a coke . Kealie walked up to us and asked for our order . We all ordered some fries , I didn't want to go near food it made want to throw up . Jace got worried on the way home he asked me why i wasn't eating as mush as i used to , yet again i passed it off as lost appetite . I was about too tell Jace that he was going to be a father and just as the words started to form Izzy called and said there was a demon attack in the park.
I knew i needed to tell him but i felt whenever i was about to it was like i was being gagged . The wind was rattling against the windows of the institute , i got up and walked over to the window seat were i sit and draw . The pencil in my hand moved against the paper like it was an extension of my arm , i soon found myself drawing a baby With golden hair and green eyes . I dropped the pad and stood up abruptly I needed to tell him and now . The halls of the institute were lonely and cold i folded my arms around myself too keep warm , as i rounded the corner where jace's bedroom was i ran into Alec .
"Woah watch out Clary !"
"Oh sorry Alec i was just going to Jace's room." I replied rubbing my elbow and looking at my feet
"Ahh right well he isn't in there he's in the music room."
"Thanks ." I started walking down the hall in the direction of the music room when Alec shouted out.
"Oh and Clary you okay?"
oh no he was onto me , I looked away so he couldn't see me lying and replied .
"Yes Alec , thank you for worrying ."
"Ok it's just you've been a bit . Distant ." He looked worried more than usual.
"Yeah I'm fine just tired." I walked down the hall ending the conversation.
I opened the door to the music room along with the soft sweet sound of Jace's piano playing. He must of heard me because he stopped just as i entered the room.
"Clary what is it ?" he shut the piano lid and stood up coming over to me , I noticed i was crying hot acidic tears were hitting the floor the closer he came near me.
"Jace."
He reached out for my hands but i drew away. "Clary what is it whats wrong?"
"J-Jace I'm sorry !" I collapsed into his arms burring my head into he's chest and sobbing.
"Clary what is it please tell me !" he drew me back and held my shoulders supportively .
"Jace I'm I'm I'm ." I couldn't get the word out , my heart was throbbing against my chest i was breathing heavily so heavily I couldn't stand i needed to sit , anywhere would be good I chose the floor and slid down to the steps near where we were standing .
"Jace i'm so sorry i'm so sorry !" At that moment i broke down crying my heart out , he was getting scared i could see it in his eyes but he continued to ask what was wrong .
"Clary i can't help if you don't tell me whats wrong!"
It was going to happen , oh no the sick was coming up . Yes it was here , I rushed towards the nearest door in the music room that was a bathroom when in there i was already over the toilet throwing my insides up . I felt hands on my back comforting me rubbing circles on my back . I was finished i leaned against the wall and sighed . I felt a tiny bit better .
"Clary will you tell me whats wrong now please ?"
"Okay ." I paused like i was expecting the words come out of the radio near the sink or him .
"You're going to have to speak to tell me you know ."
"I know . "
"Then go on say it ." He was opposite me sitting with his knees up in-front of him , god he was beautiful the golden hair the golden eyes that i fell in love with . Mamamia .
"Jace I'm pregnant." He sat there frozen his mouth slightly ajar "say something, Jace please ."
"Are you sure ?" He was looking down twiddling with his fingers "I mean it could be a false alarm?"
"No it isn't ." I looked at him memorising the detail that made him Jace , just incase i'd never see him again .
"Clary ."
Oh no it was coming he was going to say it that one word i hated . Goodbye . But i was wrong instead he said the three words I adored.
"I love you ."
