Disclaimer: No, I don't own Doctor Who. Now will you please stop reminding me of this annoying little detail?


I like these two. I didn't at first, of course. I never do. Whenever someone new comes to live on board, it's my instinct to despise them. No matter how many times it's happened, I've never gotten over that feeling that they're just a replacement. I know they're far more than that, and even more so recently. He grows so attached to each one of these humans that sometimes I fear that one will leave and it'll finally be too much, and his hearts will break and not heal. I can't say that to him, though, because I do the same thing. Sometimes I wonder if they realize how much they mean to us- how much we love them while they stay, how much it hurts us when they go.

The redhead, Amy, can be rude, but she's brave, and kind when she needs to be. I hated her when she first came to live here. I remember thinking that this could not possibly be the same sweet little seven-year-old girl the Doctor told me about. But I must admit, she grew on me. Her husband, Rory, seems quiet, but is unstoppable when it comes to defending those he loves. I like that about him. It reminds me of the Doctor.

He's changed, too. I guess I feel the same way with a new regeneration as I do with a new companion. But even though his thoughts take a different shape, it doesn't take too long before you accept that he really and truly is the same old Time Lord. He's grown so old so fast. On Gallifrey he'd still be considered young. He doesn't feel young, I know. Neither do I. We've both been through more than anyone else in our universe, and will continue on for as long as we can.

His companions are what shape him. They're what have made his life so painful. He is forced, every day, to choose between heartbreak and loneliness. I suppose heartbreak is a logical choice. At least it isn't constant.

Amy and Rory Pond are companions number forty-nine and fifty. And it hurts, because I know they'll leave the Doctor- leave me- entirely too soon.

Will it never end?