She was gone. As was her way of explaining things. Just a few lines. A few lines, to describe why she had to go. No history lesson, tour guide or detailed instructions for guests and NO, she couldn't wait. For me, to hear about how Charlie was safe, how I defeated Montreaux, how she saved me. I don't know demons and without her advice, I'd be dead. She'd talked about going before the case came up but I hadn't taken any interest and then we'd gone to visit the Stewarts and it wasn't appropriate or important. I might have gone, if she'd discussed it, if she'd let me listen. What, was it my manly irresistible charms that meant I'd somehow dissuade her, or that she didn't want to be here when I was. And I couldn't tell her about my vision and what it meant. How relieved I was to get past my three cases. How I … I what… what would I have told her. Fighting off lost demons and figuring out puzzles with the grand stake prize of saving the world didn't do much to help me realize what it was I needed to tell Grace. Something like how I couldn't explain why I needed to protect her, give her my medallion that night and why we ended up sleeping together. After all I had to keep reminding myself she hadn't seen that vision dream or whatever, that she hadn't seen it and couldn't describe that feeling it invoked anymore than my pathetic excuse for a brain could.
I couldn't comprehend why she'd just leave. But Grace had changed, she certainly wasn't mommy's little girl anymore and I never notice her reply to one of her mom's letters. And all her explaination really was " a door has closed. Another opened, I'm doing what is right.". that was only half of what it said but I didn't care what it said, neither half made enough sense.
To me it didn't feel right, me being here and her on a train or plane to that place in India by now. And no she hadn't left her picture or any address. And I was left sitting on the bed back turned to the window and the computer screen of Sidney. Sitting, alone. No one to tell it to, none who'd understand, not even mose, not even gerde.
It wasn't right, just sitting there but then I couldn't figure what was… that was my problem.
