There's only one word that describes how I'm feeling right now ... Dejected, Defeated, disgusted ... Suffering. but has a remedy for everything is not it? In my case the remedy would escape the cruel reality.

Sometimes I remember the day I admitted my feelings for him and he revealed his for me and then we were in love with each other locally ... until the day I saw him look fascinated by vampire project.

I gave a small smile as cold I'll leave here today because I could not stand to see my Jake and that means leech out of the church happy life.

I sometimes wonder if Jacob will remember me when you're about to say yes to the priest of the church and Kissing mid leech and They leave for honeymoon on the island of Esme and make love passionately the fose Their last day.

Comes the urge to vomit

Some minutes later I began to hear the music of the wedding was about to begin and this would be my cue because it is the perfect time to escape because the entire pack was at the ceremony, I got up from my bed and grabbed my suitcase and a letter photo my beloved Jake, go to the kitchen and let my letter on the table explaining why I have run.

I look again at the picture of my ex boyfriend and I talk to myself.

"I'll miss Jake ..."

And so I go into the woods to La Push to get struggling to escape my cruel reality.