A/N: My first fanfiction for Mai Hime so please excuse the newbie mistakes. I'd love reviews!
Disclaimer: Mai Hime is not mine. Just borrowing the characters...
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Surfaces
A barren stretch of never ending emptiness fades into the horizon. Nothing but a gust of wind scattering and changing the dunes rushes by, never bothering to linger and keep me company. Alone, a feeling of overwhelming sadness permeates every part of my body and seeps into my soul. I'm parched and it's been a while since I've had any relief, any sign of hope from you. These chains of self preservation that have held me back are wearing down, slowly crumbling off the longer I stay here. Yet the longer I waste away, the further you go. My fear of loving is soon replaced by my fear of a loss of your love, and a chance at reciprocation.
After the chaos of everything and your confession, you must admit that it was hard for anyone to see through your facade. Underneath the smooth surface of perfection everyone thought they saw, my line of sight was marred by what you presented to the world. Months later, knowing how you truly felt made me awkward and our conversations were always haltingly drawn out in an effort to reconnect. Time was never on my side, for once I began to acknowledge that I was capable and worthy of your affection, you began to retreat. Now I'm in a rush to break free because I can't let you get further than you already have. I'm racing against time to catch up to you, so I that I can find home, and that is anywhere you are.
It's so ridiculously simple if you think about it. My feet start off slow and I'm unaccustomed to taking steps but the thought of losing you spurs me on to begin moving. I'm escaping my prison of reluctance. It was standing in my way of happiness, and gave me nothing but endless amounts of regrets. I know that it's not often I get second chances and I don't want to regret letting you leave. I'd gladly shout out to the world that it was always you. Will you let me? It took me a while but once I get a start, my propensity for speed will eventually help me catch up to you, if you still feel the same way.
Is it too much, you think? I've become excessive in my dreams of us, so often that I trick myself into believing that they're real. Sometimes I'd be home before you or you before me but every night would be the same - enjoying each other's company until we drift off to sleep. What a luxury that would be, to find comfort in yours arms at any time and anywhere.
I admit that surfaces are necessary, they are what gives us depth but it depends on those who are willing to work hard to delve underneath that have the most impact upon a person. You are as much part of me as I am a part of you. That's why I will never let you doubt my love in our moments together, much like I want to prove so much to you now. Will you wait for me?
