Ok this is my first GrimmIchi Fanfic, that just randomly popped in my head.

Warnings: This is not for childeren, and if you dont want to read a story that has gore, Strong language, Strong Sexual content, Rape, Violence and Yaoi or Male/Male I would advise you to click tha back button quick.

This chapter here is actually the prologue but im seeing if i should go along with this story so please Read and Review.

Please Enjoy

" It was just too much for me to handle, and when i finally snapped i welcomed the darkness that surouneded me and with a smile i spoke my last words...its finally over"

Present

Grimmjow frowned and scowled as he heard the answering machine on the other side of the phone. Why wouldnt Ichigo pick up? That had been the tenth time calling him, something in his gut was telling him something was wrong and he wanted to make sure his lover was ok.

"Screw this shit!" The blunette stuffed the phone back in his pocket. He grabbed his jacket jogging out to his car. Once he was inside he put the key in the ignition and listened as the engine sprung to life.

"Dammit Ichigo, you better be ok" He sped off pressing his foot hard on the gas. His heart waas hammering in his chest. Something wasnt right, Ichigo would of answered on the very first ring. He always did that.

As Grimmjow pulled up to the berrys house his gut tightened and he didnt know why. He took a breath to calm himself as his pulse sped up.

"Cmon no time to get freaked out here, gotta make sure Ichis ok" He willed his body to get out of the car. The pavement that led to Ichigos house seemed farther away. every step he took brought more dread to him.

What the hell is wrong with me?

He rang the doorbell and waited for an answer, after a minute without recieving one he rang again this time yelling out his lover's name.

"What the hell is going on?" He knew Ichigo was home, he saw a light upstairs. The blunette scowled digging through his pocket and grabbing the extra key set he had given him

why the hell didnt you use it before idiot

His hand shakily put the key in and he unlocked the door. He slowly opened it feeling his pulse speed up. He swallowed thickly and opened up the door all the way closing it silently behind him. He felt a shiver run through his body as he looked around the living room for any sign of his berry.

"Ichigo?" he whispered. His throat felt like it was constricted and his feet felt like lead. even so he willed himself to move up the stairs. As he reached the top he saw a small light down the dark hallway.

The hallway seemed longer then when it took him to get to the stairs infront of the house. He cursed under his breath at his nervousness but he wouldnt turn back. He needed to make sure he was ok.

He finally reached the door and pushed it open all the way. "Ichi?"

His eyes looked down at the floor and immediatly widened just as he felt his heart shatter. Ichigo sat on the side of his bed, cuts that were still bleeding some framed his arms and a belt hung loosely around his neck, a blue hue was there as if he had tried to hang himself recently. A silver short barrel gun was at his temple and orange bangs covered his eyes.

"I-Ichig-"

"Hey Grimm" His tone of voice sounded casual as if he didnt have a gun pointed to his head. Grimmjow saw that his shoulders shook a little as he spoke.

"Ichigo..w-what are you doing, why do you have a gun pointed to your head?" Grimmjow nearly yelled, his voice filled with anger and sadness. He knew he had had a bad feeling but this...this was too much for him.

Ichigo said nothing but he rose his head. The dullness in his eyes had returned once again. Tears leaked from them but he had a small smile on his face.

"Im happy to see you Grimm, now last night wasnt the last time i saw you"

"No Ichigo! dont say things like that, take the gun away, im begging you, Please!" Grimmjow pleaded. He wouldnt let his berry take his own life, he couldnt die on him like this, he refused to let him.

Ichigo chuckled as tears continued to run down his cheeks and stain his white t-shirt. His shoulders trembled as he readjusted his handle on the gun.

"Dont do this Ichi. dont take your own life"

Ichigos smile got a bit wider "Oh Grim, I would have asked you to do it but...knowing you...you would take the gun away...you couldnt do it, you dont have the heart to" He said sadly the smile deminishing as he looked down at his other blood stained hand.

He smiled again looking back up at his lovers face. His eyes were sad and were giving Grimmjow a silent goodbye.

Grimmjow shook his head as his lover's eyes looked into his. He knew he couldnt move forward because Ichigo would simply shoot himself faster.

"No Ichi dont do-"

"I didnt want you to see me like this" Ichigo pushed the gun close to his temple, the smile still gracing his face as he looked lovingly at Grimmjow.

Grimmjows eyes widened more, he couldnt move, his body refused to move. He could hear his heart in his ear.

"Goodbye...grimm"