A/N: Rawr! Royal Dragon here with a new story! It's not very long at all not even 10 chapters. I hope you like it though. I wanted to do something different and this idea popped into my head so I started writing it. I'll try and update every week or sooner depending on the reviews. So go ahead and read.
Chapter 1: Cancer
Roxas POV
"No I refuse to have sex! Those were my conditions and you knew that!" I cried stamping my foot. Damn it this was the second guy that I had talked to that thought sex was part of the deal.
Gathering my messenger bag I left the house and got into my car. Revving it up I sped down the gravel road and to Merlin's. Slamming the door open I saw Merlin jump but continue to pour his tea.
"Would you like some?" He asked holding up an empty mug.
Sighing I nodded and pulled out a chair for the old man and one for myself. We sat silently until the kettle started screaming. Wincing Merlin attempted to get up but I pushed him down and got the kettle along with the two cups he had pulled out. Grabbing some honey and the tea bags I took the supplies to the table and watched as Merlin shakily poured the hot water.
"I would ask what you were doing but you left the computer up so I already know. I thought our agreement was that I pay for all the bills with no sex or kissing involved in exchange that you're mine." His voice was gruff and there was a slight edge of anger towards it.
Merlin was in short my Sugar Daddy. He paid my bills and bought me cars and anything that I wanted. He was rich and had no family and in exchange for all of this I spent time with him. I made my conditions clear with any Sugar Daddy that said they wanted me. Most of them were fine with it for the first few weeks but after a while when I didn't start putting out they stopped paying the bills.
Most of them were ok that I had a few Sugar Daddy's on the side helping to pay for other things. But then I met Merlin, he didn't want sex or to kiss he just wanted someone to spend time with him in exchange that I would dump all my other Daddy's. So I did.
Merlin's children weren't there for him, not on the day he turned eighty or the day we found out he was diagnosed with terminal cancer. I had been with Merlin for more than two years and when we found out that rainy day I cried. He was more to me than a Sugar Daddy he was like a father figure for me.
When I was twelve I came out as gay to my family. They kicked me out and I started living on the streets. I started living in shelters for about a year until some man approached me and asked me if I wanted to live with him. He was good looking so I agreed. He kept me up for about three weeks before he raped me. I was twelve I didn't have any family, I wasn't street smart, and I was poor. All I could offer at the time was my body but I had decided I wouldn't give it to just anyone.
I tried fighting him off that night but he was stronger than me and he pinned me down easily. Grabbing some rope he tied me to the bed and then gagged me so that I couldn't scream.
For the next two days he brutally raped me over and over until I was nothing more than a broken mess. When he found another child around my age he kicked me out and I was back on the streets.
I lived there for about two months going in between shelters before I met another man. He gave me my own apartment this time when I batted my lashes and talked as sweetly as possible. He made a key to my apartment and when I wouldn't put out I was raped again.
I was thirteen before I started learning how to be a proper Sugar Baby. I made sure that anyone that wanted to be with me knew that my condition was no sex. Some of them were willing to abide but most of them were not so I cut all ties with them.
A year later I met Merlin he found me outside of one of the shelters broken and crying. It had been another close call. I remember him picking me up cradling me close and telling me that everything was going to be just fine. He took me to his home ran a bath for me and stripped me bare. Sitting me in he silently washed me, helped me up and then wrapped me in a towel.
He made me tea and didn't ask questions. But I was so close to cracking that I ended up telling him everything. That was the night we struck our deal, and now at the age of sixteen I learned Merlin was dying.
"They've given you a few more months... I'm sorry I just wanted to be secure make sure I had someone else lined up." I whispered.
"Roxas! I have money I'm going to leave all of it to you in the will. You know this!" He cried slamming his hands down on the table.
"I don't care about the money! I just... I don't want to be alone again! Merlin I've been alone for so long... I need someone... I don't want to be alone... not again." I whispered.
Tears were streaming down my eyes as I got up and stormed to the door. Flinging it open I was surprised to see two people dressed in scrubs, one of them fist raised. One was a tiny girl with short cropped black hair and blue eyes while the other was a fucking skinny ass giant with flaming red hair and toxic green eyes.
The girls face was red and she kept trying hard not to meet my gaze. "Um... hi... is Merlin home?" She asked.
Nodding I pointed to the way inside before taking off down the street. I ran as fast as I could for about two blocks before finally making it to one of the nearby parks. Falling to the ground I let out a long and loud wail, I was going to be alone again. I was going to be alone, I didn't want to be alone.
I didn't realize someone had followed me until I felt strong arms wrap around waist. Cradling my head to a strong chest I cried hard probably soaking the poor persons shirt. After some time I pulled back to thank the strong person holding me to see it was one of Merlin's nurses.
"I'm sorry... I just... I know he's going to pass soon and I saw you crying and I'm so sorry but I heard your conversation so I didn't want to leave you alone." He explained running his fingers through my hair. "Oh yeah my name is Axel by the way. Got it memorized?" He asked pointing to his temple.
Giggling I nodded my head standing up and holding a hand out for the gentle giant to take. "I'm Roxas. Merlin is my..." I started but stopped. I couldn't just say that he was my Sugar Daddy out loud.
"Your his Sugar Baby? I've known Merlin for a while. I know how he is, he falls for the pretty face and takes them in and lavishes them with everything and then in turn they leave him alone just like his family did. When I heard he had taken you in I was going to confront you because I really care about Merlin but when I came to the house I saw you helping him around. You didn't seem so bad and he really seemed to like you... and I can't believe I just said all that out loud." He chuckled his face heating up as red as his hair.
"Means I don't have to explain anything." I responded. "I love Merlin he's been a father to me for a long time." I wasn't about to get into any more detail about my life. Merlin already knew too much about me.
We were silent for a long while before I headed over to the swing set. I was surprised that Axel joined me instead of saying he should get back to Merlin.
"Xion told me to take my time." He said as an answer to my unspoken question.
Xion so that was her name. It suited her in a way. Kicking the sand I let my head drop as I tried hard to hold back more of the oncoming tears.
"It's inoperable. They wouldn't even try, they said it was on his brain and he was basically too old. You believe that shit?" I laughed bitterly pumping my legs back and forth so that I gained momentum on the swing I was on.
After a long moment of silence Axel did the same and soon we were both swinging in silence. The afternoon sun turned quickly into darkness. I knew I should be home by now to start dinner for Merlin but I didn't want to leave Axel's presence at the same time. Even though we had barely talked it felt nice to just be near him.
"How long have you been alone?" He asked as we watched the stars begin to dot the skies.
"I have to go now. Merlin's probably hungry. I'll see you I guess when I see you." I said as way of an answer. Skidding to a stop I jumped off the swings and raced down the street. I didn't stop until I was back at Merlin's.
Throwing the door open I saw that Merlin had fallen asleep on the couch. The day we found out Merlin was diagnosed with cancer they said that nothing could be done. The doctor was kind and apologized but I wasn't going to be appeased as easily as Merlin.
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"You can't operate? He can't take anything? He's just supposed to die?" I cried trying hard not to lunge at the stupid periwinkles doctor.
"We can start chemo but it will only buy him a few months. Because of his age it wouldn't be wise to operate he could die on the table." Doctor Zexion said.
His periwinkled hair covered one of his wide blue eyes and he was short, as short as me and I was pretty damn short. Holding Merlin's papers up he read over them one more time as I tried to grasp the severity of the situation.
"Merlin you can start chemo..." I started but was interrupted when Merlin reached a hand out and touched my shoulder.
"Doctor would you mind leaving us alone for a few moments?" Nodding Zexion left closing the door softly behind us. "Roxas, I'm an old man. I'm going to die and I've accepted that. It's a lot sooner than I would have liked but I've lived a full life. I'm going to make sure that your set up so don't worry."
"It's not the money! I don't want to be alone you old geezer! I've been alone for so long Merlin... I just don't want to lose you. I don't even care about the money!" I cried slamming my fists down on the ground as I sank to the floor. "I'm begging you to do the chemo, please Merlin."
Kneeling down on the floor beside me Merlin wrapped his arms around me. "I'm so sorry Roxas. I love you like a son and to me you are one. I value your opinion very highly but I'm sorry I'm not going through chemo."
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I cried hard that night and seeing him now lying on the couch sleeping with his skin stretched over bone made me sink to the floor. Crawling over I brushed my hand through coarse white hair. His skin had lost all color and now looked grey.
Starting on a small bowl of soup I walked over to Merlin who was now shivering even though blankets had been loaded on top of him. When the microwave dinged I hurried over to wake him.
"Hey, wake up it's time to eat." I whispered lightly shaking him.
Snorting he woke with a start sitting up and rubbing bleary eyes. "Roxas?" He asked as if he didn't remember me. Stretching he offered me a small smile.
"Yeah its me, time to eat now. I bet you're starving." I whispered situating myself beside him.
Merlin didn't eat much which was something that I expected. After helping him to get into bed I did the same. For the next few weeks Axel followed me around. There were days that I went to meet a few potential Sugar Daddy's but Axel didn't ask any questions when I came back. Some nights he took me out for dinner and other times he came over and had dinner with Merlin and I.
Merlin had no shame in pointing out to Axel where I was going. He was constantly reminding me of our agreement with or without the nurses around.
"I'm not dead yet Roxas! I told you to stop looking for another Sugar Daddy. I'm going to leave you good I told you that!" He cried as Xion took his blood pressure.
Her face was red as she had to listen to our quarreling. Taking the cuff off she hurriedly made her way into the kitchen presumably to make tea.
"That's not why I'm looking! Damn it old man I told you I don't care about the fucking money!" I screamed. I was angry and hurt and the nurses were here and Merlin acted like he didn't give a damn. I felt humiliated so I ran.
When I made it to the park I collapsed on top of the slides. When I was able to get myself together I headed to the set of swings Axel and I had been occupying for the last few weeks and sat down. No one showed up so I sat there alone swinging until the stars began to dot the skies.
A/N: Whelp I hope you enjoyed this first chapter! Let me know what you think! I'm going to update every week unless you guys review me like you did with Of Red Wolves and Blond Tails then you'll see more chapters sooner. Hehe but enjoy this first chapter and review let me know what you think!
xoxo Royal
