You'd think that I'd be used to it by now.
The pain…
The loneliness…
It hurts. It really hurts.
Maybe I am used to it. But the pain hasn't subsided nor has it gone away.
It's still there. It's still eats my insides. It's still feeding the monsters lurking inside of me.
And I can't stand it.
I'm not numb to the pain.
I'm not unfeeling.
I'm hurt.
I want it to go away but it won't… Not without dragging everything else with it.
I want to feel love and hate, sadness and happiness, joy and sorrow… I want to feel new again.
I want to feel like the pain hasn't killed off my existence. I want to feel like I haven't died yet from the dryness of my emotions.
I want to feel alive again.
A/N: I'm truly sorry for not updating my other works. I'm just really busy from all the things I should be prioritizing right now. Everything is in chaos for me... I hope you guys understand. I will be trying to finish the first part of Ch. 3 of Pazzo though~ :3 Thank you for your time. Please review!
