Too fast. I remember when mum told me I was going to have another little sibling. I was only three.
Then, I remember when I felt her kick. I knew she was real, then.
I remember hoping it would be a girl so I could be her big tough brother.
I remember how tiny she was. I didn't think she was really a baby. Al had seemed so much bigger.
And she was five and I was eight, and Al made her cry, so I hit him. I got grounded, but no one makes my baby sister cry.
When I was eleven and leaving her behind was the hardest thing I had ever done. And then, it was me who made her cry, and I promised to write every day.
I remember getting up at two in the morning because I forgot to write her that day.
And then she was coming to Hogwarts, and she really wasn't a baby anymore, but she was my baby sister.
I remember when I had to protect her from vicious girls spreading rumors. I thought that was bad until I had to protect her from my friends.
"Who's that redhead over there?" they had asked. "She's hot" another had whistled. It was the first time I beat someone up.
Then I remember the day I protected her from one of the Slytherins, Nott. But I found out that sometimes she didn't want protection.
I found out leaving her the first time wasn't nearly as hard as leaving her again.
I graduated, and I had to leave my baby sister's safety to my butt of a little brother. I couldn't leave her. I got a position as teacher's assistant to Teddy. He was DADA professor.
Of course, Lily was thrilled that I was back. Nott wasn't so thrilled. Eventually, he broke up with my sister. I was ecstatic. I didn't need to make sure he was good to her anymore.
But he broke her heart. I didn't know if she could be fixed.
I almost lost my position because I beat Nott to a pulp, but Teddy understood. Teddy saw what that snake did to my baby sister.
After a year, she started to come back to herself. So you understand why I was mad when another snake wanted her.
It was Malfoy. I told Lily, and I thought she would laugh. Malfoy? Scorpius Hyperion Malfoy? But she blushed.
Then, they were dating. Lily told me if I interfered she would never speak to me again. It nearly broke my heart.
It all happened so fast. Suddenly, they were getting married. Dad was walking her down the aisle.
Lily Luna Malfoy.
Dad gave her away, but I felt like I was losing her more than he was. I wasn't the one who got to protect her anymore.
And then Christmas. And they kissed under the mistletoe. And for his present, she gave him a box. It opened to another box. And he was confused, so was I. But he kept opening to another box, and another, and another until-it stopped. And there was a note. Scorpius seemed so happy. Why couldn't I just reach out and read the note?
I think I knew then. I knew, but I didn't want to know. Time froze. I was really done then, because I knew. Finally, I read that note. She was pregnant.
My baby sister was having a baby.
Now I'm not the big one. She is.
But maybe, just maybe, I have a purpose again. Maybe I can be the big, tough one again.
Emily Jasmine Malfoy.
Then she was going to Hogwarts. And my heart almost broke. And I promised to write her every day.
