Yeah, Mama doesn't know about me. She fogot. Her memories were...surpressed. Mama thinks that...I'm one of the other Sohma children. Children who are curesed by the vengeful spirits...are born twon months earlier than normal. To meet your true love...then marry you true love...and have a baby with your true love...and hold that baby...and then have it change into a strange baby animal...what a despair...a mother would feel. The mother of the children possesed by the vengeful spriits...either become extremely over-protective of them...or reject them entirely. My Mama rejected me. She rejected me with her whole body. She wouldn't even look at me. She was always irritated...always hysterical...thinking about it now...I can tell she was broken. Just like Kana. And so...I disappared from Mama's memories. Mama eventually got better. In two months, she could even smile again. I wonder if I really helped Mama. But...I think...I want...to live with all my memories. Even if they're sad memories. Even if they're memories that only hurt me. Even...even if they're memories that I'd rather forget. If I keep trying, without running away...if I keep trying, then someday...someday I'll be strong enough that those memories can't defeat me. I believe that. I want to beleieve that. Because I want to think...that there's no such thing...as a memory that's okay to forget. that's why...that's why I really...didn't want Mama to forget. I wanted her to keep trying. But...that was my selfish wish. It's a secret.