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This is from the moment when Clary confront Alec with his 'feelings for Jace'.
"I know you love Jace," Clary said. Alec looked at her with confusion, anger and a small spark of affection... gone before she was sure it was there. "I don't love Jace," He said looking her straight in the eyes. "Why would you think that?" he came lose from the wall across the hall and walked to Clary. He stopped before her, letting one feet between them. Clary felt confused, not only because he said her theory wasn't true. It was his appearance, so close to her and the feeling she got from it, that really confused her. "When i'm with Jace you're always mean and you're very protective over him," She told him softly without losing eye contact. He was the one who broke it. "Ohw… Ehmmm, no that's not because i like Jace." His eyes where looking at his shoes, which he moved nervously. Clary got a little nervous from him being nervous. Not knowing what to expect. She never really saw Alec as a nervous and emotional person. Of course he had feelings, it's not like she thought that he didn't. But he always had his walls high up so nobody knew what he was feeling or thinking. Most people only knew what he showed them. Clary thought she could see what he truly meant, most of the time. But now she was too confused by what was going on. She was also trying to think of something what could explain that he was mean. Other than that he was in love with Jace, nothing popped up in her mind
"So why do you hate me then?"
"I don't hate you!" He looked angry and tired in her eyes. The anger melted away when he realised that he was speaking to Clary. She wanted to say something, but the girl noticed that Alec was trying to find the courage to say what he wanted to say. Now he looked shy in her eyes. "I… It's not Jace i like" His eyes turned to the ground looking like he was ashamed of what he just told her. But when he looked back up, she saw nothing else then that he was glad that he told her. He was still waiting for a response. The spark in his eyes became dull while he was waiting for a response. She just didn't know how to answer.
There was a weight off Alec's shoulders, one he didn't know he was carrying. He was glad he told her, sort of. It was now out in the open. But he knew that now that his hopes are awake, they will be crushed any time soon. When the red-haired-girl didn't answer he hoped that his face didn't show what he felt. His hope getting smaller and smaller every minute. Alec looked at her and saw she was figuring out what she was going to say. When she finally started talking, he thought it was a mistake to tell her that he liked her. "I… I don't know what to say Alec." Maybe it wasn't a mistake. Well that's what he hoped, now that she didn't say no. But she liked Jace. When that happened, there was no way back. For that he was angry at Jace. Angry that Jace had her heart and if he liked her as much as Alec did then it was a lost cause. He could never love her as the blond-haired-boy could. Not as experienced, free or unclumsy. But the black-haired-boy needed to know.
Alec came closer. Putting his hand beside her face. She felt like she was starting to blush. This boy had a strange effect on her. "Do you love him?" He said fast and soft but looking her straight in the eyes. She almost didn't hear him but she did. The emotions running through those four words hurted her. Clary didn't want him to feel hurt or bad and above all not because of her. She felt bad of it and at the same time she felt something she never felt before. Not like this. She wanted to take a step towards the beautiful black haired boy and comfort him. Putting a hand on his cheek and putting a small kiss on his lips. The girl didn't do it. She felt like she would betray someone. Jace… she would betray Jace. She hadn't thought about him since the start of this conversation. Looking into Alecs' eyes, the red haired girl remembered she still needed to answer his question. The problem was HOW. The truth. That's how she was going to answer. "I don't know. If you would have asked that question an hour ago i probably would have said that i liked him. But now with you so close to me. It questions what i thought love felt like." Clary said while she looked away from Alec and felt her cheeks burn. "I really thought i loved him. But this feels as something i shouldn't be feeling if i loved Jace." She felt his hands against her cheeks, forcing her to look at him. He looked with eyes full of passion. So when he came closer, she wasn't surprised. The kiss was small but full of passion. His lips felt soft and good against hers. When he pulled back he smiled. That smile filled Clary's body with a warm feeling she hoped would never stop. She smiled back at him. He kissed her nose once and stepped back. "I love your freckles did you know?" And with that he left her alone, with a smile on her face, that wouldn't leave her face in hours.
