This is something I need to say, it's important that I say this, I'm tired of living with things like this kept inside.
In the past my heart had been shattered into countless pieces, that woman broke my heart, she was to be my bride and I her groom, but she had other plans. She tore off the heart I so proudly wore on my sleeve, and crushed it under her feet. Death would have been preferable to the feelings I felt days, weeks, and even months after. With my heart ruined I wondered if I'd ever be able to love again, and if I had my say in it, I wouldn't. I didn't want to expose myself to that kind of pain again.
But I've met someone, someone who at one point I thought I might be able to love, if only I could let myself open up. Doubt is all that clouds my mind on a regular basis, doubt that my plans will work, doubt that my friends are true, and doubt that I'll ever find a love that I can be open with. I've told this woman my deepest fears and concerns. I've told her how I feel but not to this extent, her friendship is valued, but it's killing me not to say this. I know that you're spoken for, and no matter what you say, after reading this, there's no way that our friendship is going to stay the same.
