Title: My Baby Shot Me Down
Rating: T
Genre: Romance/Angst/Angst/ANGST
Summary: 'bang bang' he smiled and then she'd fall.
;;She always knew he'd be the death of her;;
I was five, he was six
We rode on horses made of sticks
He wore bllack and I wore white
He would always win the fights
x x x
'And in other news, Kelly Garcia, wife of famed Big Time Rush member Carlos Garcia has been identified as the woman killed in this morning's car accident.'
(By the way, a very Merry Christmas to you.)
x x x
He can't remember the last proper conversation he ever had with her.
(Because someone reminds him they had an argument as she entered her car.)
Whatever it was, he sure as hell hopes it was something important.
x x x
And sure hopes it ended with 'I love you' as opposed to 'I don't have time for this'
/because there sure is no time anymore, is there?/
x x x
Sometimes, on Friday nights— their date night— they'd curl up and watch old spaghetti Western films and play the drinking game; drink for every time someone spit, drink everytime said 'damn' or 'scoundrel', drink for the dramatic ride off into the sunset, and somewhere in between there were giggles and kisses.
He'd make a gun out of his hands and drunkily giggle, winking at her.
'bang bang' he smiled and then she'd fall.
x x x
;;You'll be the death of me, Carlos;; she whispers amongst the blurs of hot breaths, bruises, cries, kisses, and everything beautiful in between them like some sort of a dream.
— no, really, you will— his nightmares years later add.
x x x
He doesn't cry when Kendall has to sit him down and tell him everything.
He doesn't cry when everyone— and he means everyone, even freaking Griffin— spew out never ending amounts of sympathy.
He doesn't cry at the fueneral. He can't, no, really, he just can't.
(Because crying means accepting she's gone.)
x x x
He does, however, cry when he visists her grave sometime years later.
Only because he realizes then he didn't even get the chance to say goodbye to her.
x x x
'This just in; A horrific event! Big Time Rush member Carlos Garcia has been found dead from overdose in his own apartment.'
x x x
Bang bang, he shot me down
Bang bang, I'd hit the ground
Bang bang, that awful sound
Bang bang... my baby shot me down
'Bang Bang' - Nancy Sinatra
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