=Prologue=

MEMORIES

"It hurt so much… how can you be a dream?"


I looked at myself in the mirror…. I can see this man looking back at me. A man with raven hair and crimson eyes…very, very sad crimson eyes "today is the last day" I muttered to myself "Her last day" I said with eyes full of pain. The thought of her leaving my side forever, not being able to see her again ever shreds my heart in a billion pieces. "no.." I said to myself "I mustn't count the minuets… I mustn't cry" I said stopping my tears from falling "I must stay… and watch her …..till the end" I looked at my reflection again and exited the room. As I walked down the stairs I saw her sitting in the couch while browsing through our photo album. Her face is as beautiful as ever. She's glowing like a candle in the dark. Her beautiful long auburn hair flowed beautifully as she turned to look at me. She then smiled and browsed through the album again. I just stood there looking at her. I can feel my tears on the verge of falling but I managed to stop it. I don't want her to see me like this. I then walked to her and seated at the couch in front of her. "Do you want to go somewhere else?" I managed to ask her while trying to suppress my tears.

"you haven't slept the entire week. Don't you feel tired?" she asked with eyes full of concern.

"I'm fine. I don't feel tired at all" I managed to give her a small smile. "I even washed my face."

"Natsume.. come here" I moved closer to her. She then took out something in her bag. It's the moisturizer I gave her. She said that every time she uses it, she can feel herself being more beautiful. She put some on her hand and applied it on both sides of my cheeks. "wow. So handsome!" I just sat there looking at her. Her hands are warm. I didn't want that warmth to leave me ever. I can feel a painful pang on my chest. it hurts.. it hurts so much… I wouldn't be able to feel that touch again … it hurts so badly. She continued to caress my cheeks and fix my hair. "your really, really handsome!" she smiled widely. "your so so so so so handsome!" I avoided her eyes and looked away. The more I look into her eyes, the more I feel the pain in it. Despite of the pain I feel I managed to look at her give her a smile "I'm sorry" she muttered "even though you feel sleepy endure it and stay with me till the end… hm?" I felt a hard pain in my heart. She's leaving… soon… disappearing…. Forever.

"ok…I will stay with you… till the end…." I don't want her to leave. I don't want her to disappear. I want her by my side forever. But time passes swiftly the moon is out and now it's time, time for her to leave my side, forever. We are now at the place where I first saw her, the real her. "Remember when I first saw the real you?"

"mm. this is a good place" she smiled at me, that angel-like smile of hers.

"indeed it is." I looked at her and held her hands tightly.

"but you were so scared at that time" she gave out a small laugh.

"you're right I was." I looked down "but compared to that time….. today….. I'm a hundred times more scared" now I held her hands near my heart. I looked at her in the eye. I can see that she's scared as well. She then covered my eyes with her left hands. I tried to remove her hands but she struggled to keep it there. I can feel my tears finally escaping my eyes and flowing through my cheeks freely. I held onto both of her hand tightly, never wanting to let go.

"just stay like this" I can here her voice stuttering and her hands are shivering. She's crying as well. "Natsume… think of it as a dream" it's near "from the moment you first saw me…. Until this moment that I disappear" don't go "thin k of it as a dream" please "if you think of it as a dream… when you open your eyes it won't hurt at all"

"mikan" I called out her name with my voice full of pain "don't leave" stay "please… don't leave" I felt like crying a river. My heart is overflowing with sadness and pain.

"forget all the scary parts…. And remember me as a really really really good dream" how can I do that? if you were my reality. Our tears are falling freely in both of our cheeks. I can feel both of our pain. I them felt her soft, sweet lips touch mine. Our kiss, our last kiss. as the clouds covered the moon I felt her hands disappear from mine. She went out of my grasp. My heart stopped as I slowly opened my eyes. She's gone. My reality, my future, my love has now…. Disappeared… forever… I looked around the empty surrounding. Remembering the times that we shared, from the day moment I first saw her till this moment I lost her. It's breaking my heart, Shredding it in a zillion pieces. I felt as if I going to die of the pain in my heart "when I open my eyes… it won't hurt?" everything was true. It was real. And these tears that I'm shedding right now, are the evidence of your existence… and our love. "it hurt so much" I said as I reach out to my heart and my tears flowing endlessly "how can you be a dream?" everything is real. She is real, Mikan is real. I lay in the under the sakura tree crying my heart out. The moonlight is the witness of my love to Mikan.


So? How was it? Did you like it? I was inspired to create this story when I watch a Korean drama. It was nice so I thought hey? Why not turn it into a gakuen alice fic? while I was writing this I so like to cry. But of course I didn't my parents would think that I'm chatting and having a fight with my BF ( which FYI I don't have and they would totally hang me if I have) haist….. so anyway please review.. ^_^ hope you liked it guys!