ENCORE piece as a thank you for the support of my departure from Bones fan fiction. It's angsty - so no rotten tomatoes - you have been warned, lol.
Quite simply (without starting debate) Bones just makes me sad now and instead of ranting about it - I thought I should bow out gracefully and remember it for the good times.
Then I thought, meh, I wanna have the last word and there's nothing like gettin a bit of anger off of one's chest!
Picture tommy guns and Valentines massacre style fun!
Actually, scrub that, picture a three year old Brennan throwing a tantrum - you need to have a slight sense of dark humour I think.
So, enjoy my angst!
I hate you with a vengeance
I hate you hot and strong
I hate your perfect symmetry
I hate our stupid song
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I hate your beguiling eyes
So deep and so heart-warming
I hate that in spite all protest
I'm rendered non-reforming
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I hate that I'm addicted
I hate that you're my drug
I hate that though I bear my soul
It's dismissed with but a shrug
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I hate what you have stirred
Like bacillus multiplying
I hate the infestation
Permeating and undying
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I hate the utter helplessness
Complete lack of control
I hate this constant grieving
That nothing can console
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I hate your stupid Cocky belt
I hate it was from me
I hate your adolescent socks
Even their absence recently
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I hate your urge to teach me
All your grandiose life/love lectures
All your starry-eyed fairy tales
Your egotistical conjectures
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You think I don't know how to love?
That I don't know how to care?
I hate your demeaning ignorance
You pompous doctrinaire!
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I hate you because you're right
Even if you play it wrong
I hate you 'cause you quit so swift
Now where do I belong?
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I hate the looks you give me
The annoyance in your stare
Where once was love – I was so blind
For now it is not there
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I hate this self defeat
I hate the hullabaloo
I hate the undefeatable truth
I LOVE you through and through
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I hate you because I love you
I love you despite my hate
And perhaps in spite of either truth
I still don't believe in fate
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I hate you! Damn, I hate you!
Because the flipside is so cruel
I feel I should be waking soon
Jesters chanting, "April Fools!"
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But, no this is no dream
No nightmare lucid pending
This is no angst filled fiction
Penned with happy ending
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This is what I'd expected
Right down to the last word
This is the script I wrote for me
This is what I preferred
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But what I'd miscalculated
In this plan of my life's spiel
Was life by life's omission
I forgot that I would feel.
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And so I hate to end my hateful rant
But I must if I'm to survive
I'll pack these stupid feelings
Never ever to revive
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Rebuild my barricades now
I'll be sure to reinforce
I'll concrete round these roguish feelings
And I'm sure that in due course...
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I'll become that heartless person
The "Ice Queen" I believe I'm called
Compartmentalised and free from hate
Nice and safely walled
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I'll evolve – I will survive
And I'll thank you – just you wait!
I'll thank you for your life lesson
It's a shame it was too late.
If you're still here, please review!
