I don't know if anyone will read this or if it will make any sense. I can't be sure if they'll laugh at it or it will make them cry or they'll get angry. Maybe I'm stupid for posting this on a place filled with complete strangers because they'll think I'm weird, but you know what? I don't care, because I want, no I need, to tell someone this and I know someone needs to hear it. I know someone out there doesn't get told they're perfect or that they're loved. I know someone needs to be told that people care, even if they think otherwise. So I'm posting it. I just hope the people who need it, get it.
Have you ever walked down the street and just started thinking? I don't mean when it was just about the coffee you had that morning or dinner you always wanted to make, or maybe the dog you wish you still had. I mean really thinking. The kind of thinking that leaves you trapped within a spider web of doubts and faith, of sadness and joy, of everything and nothing, and you become completely consumed in your own sanctuary and you feel like you're dreaming. And slowly the outside world fades from existence and people don't really matter anymore. Then you realize how alone you are and you feel dead inside, you feel cold and empty, until you 'wake up' you've never felt so alive. Its times like those that remind you how to live. I think people live for those moments. It's like when you meet someone and they smile at you and you finally realize what beautiful is. Or when you feel like something broke your heart and then you realize that it couldn't have because you were already broken.
I don't know if any of this makes sense to anyone else but me, but I guess my point it, if you are empty, or broken, or cold, or feel like you're nothing or maybe surrounded by ugly things, you'll wake up. Give yourself a good pinch in the arm and maybe then you'll see. There's a light waiting to be found. There's a beauty waiting to be seen. And there's a joy waiting to be felt. You just have to find them. You just have to start listening instead of hearing you have to start seeing and not looking. Use your heart and use your soul. Screw the five senses, you don't near your eyes and ears, blind and deaf people get along just fine. Find the light that you can shine, see the beauty that you hold, and find the joy inside your heart. Dig deep and you'll find it, then you'll feel alive. Don't you ever give up, even for a second, because if everyone you meet tells you that you can't, just remember. I will ALWAYS believe. I will always KNOW that you CAN because even if I don't know who you are, I love you. I love you because you're alive. I love you because you're you. So wake yourself up, hold your head high, open up your heart, let out your soul, and feel alive for the first time.
