I just pummeled the closest thing I've ever had to a father.

My girlfriend has gone off to England to find a British boy-toy.

One of my best friends is paralyzed and the other kissed me to get revenge on his boyfriend.

Even worse, though, is Spinner, who had the nerve to show his face again after betraying us all for his own cheap thrills.

My band has imploded.

I'm crazy.

I'm a cheater and a loser and I'm fucking insane. And even with all that, with the mess I've made of my life, the only thing that fazes me is that my guitar is gone. Not that I spent the day in a soup kitchen or gotten knocked out by a hobo, but that that bastard took my guitar. My guitar, the one like Hendrix had, my father's last try to buy my forgiveness from beyond the grave. The guitar that helped bring Ashley and me back together, or at least managed to forge a slight friendship between us. And right now I could care less about anything else.

I don't care about that fact that Manny aborted my only chance at having something for my self. I know that sounds selfish, but we could've been happy. I know we could have. It could've been the two, three, of us against the world, but now it's just me, alone again.

I don't even care that I managed to toss away the only chance Downtown Sasquatch ever had at hitting it big. I've alienated the only people I care about, lost everything that's important to me. And I'm a slave to a bottle of medication. I can't fucking function without my pills, otherwise I turn into some raging lunatic. I'm crazy Craig, crazy Craig who's looking into Joey's eyes, tired from supporting everyone and somehow always falling short and I can't feel any remorse because all I want is my guitar back in my hand again. Crazy Craig, who still believes in love after losing Ashley again, after seeing Joey and Caitlin split up for the thousandth time, after being beaten by the man who was supposed to be there for me unconditionally. Crazy Craig, who can't sob for hurting his stepfather and somehow everyone around him, but only for my missing instrument.