AN: This is my first story. I am in love with Twilight. This is when Edward leaves Bella in New Moon. WARNING: MAJOR SPOILERS.

Do I own this : Are you kidding? My brain could not possibly compare to the genius of Stephenie Meyer.

Edward POV:

I knew what I had to do I just couldn't bring myself to do it. The selfish monster inside of me didn't want to let her go. I thought of all the times I had spent with her, trying to prove to myself that I was worth her. I hated myself for being such a monster, how could I turn such a perfect angel into eternal damnation? This is why I have to, I thought to myself. I told her we were going on a walk in the forest. By know she knew something was wrong and I had to do this before she asked, I wouldn't be able to lie to a direct question from her. I put on my best blank face, expressionless, emotionless. I told her my family was moving. Maybe she'll leave it at that, but who was I joking? This girl was ready to trade her soul for me, separation didn't come up as an obstacle worth overcoming. I am doing this for her… how could she ever love a monster? She'll forget… She said she would come with me. This was not working, I was going to have to hurt her…hard. I told her she wasn't good enough, I told her I didn't want her, Oh my god what a lie, I didn't just want her I needed her. I thought for sure she would see through me. What I saw cut my dead heart and joltled whatever wisp of a soul I had. She was crumpled on the ground sobbing, begging me to stay, she believed me. I had to get out. I couldn't stand this beautiful creature in such agony… agony I had spawn. Every part of me wanted to scoop her into my arms and kiss her hair, to tell her it was all a lie, and that all I would ever want ever need was her. I ran, faster than I ever had. The image of her, crushed, lifeless on the ground would never leave my head as long as I was on this Earth. I felt her heartbeat in my ears even as I was running, thud, thud, thud. I jumped into my car and drove. And drove. And drove until I couldn't take it any longer. I pulled of the highway to Alaska and sobbed. If it were possible endless tears would stream down my face. Only one thing comforted me: she will forget. But I wouldn't. I never would. I wanted to tell myself that she would find happiness… but… a small growing ever larger part of me knew… that Alice was right…