How long... until I find my peace?
As I sit here and slowly close my eyes
I take another deep breath
And feel the wind pass through my body
No one told me this life would be easy. I assumed everything would turn out alright. I thought Kami-sama (God) was on my side. How wrong I was. Then again, maybe I deserve this. After all, I chose this path. The decision was mine and mine alone. Demo... but it isn't fair!
I'm the one in your soul
Reflecting the light
Protect the ones who hold you
Cradling your inner child
Life isn't fair. Scars, sighs, whimpers, fireflies... and just when you think you can't get enough it comes and haunts you again. Up, down, left, right.... too many decisions to make. A thousand outcomes escaping out of one sentence.
It's serenity
In a place where I can hide
I thought it was safe to cry. Just one small moment for self-pity, then I would be on the move again. One fragile moment to breathe everything in. One moment to relax.
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by
Never let your guard down. Not even for a moment. In that one moment, you could loose someone. The only one you trust. Think about it. One, maybe two seconds... and the whole reason for your existence would vanish off the face of the earth.
Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Life is precious. Wait, let me rephrase that... EVERY life is precious. I used to think only the people that I cared for, only their lives meant something in this god-forsaken world. I was selfish and immature. You never know how important someone is until it's too late....
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control
Sometimes I look at my hands, they are covered in blood. In her blood. And suddenly I'm back to where I started. The snow is falling steadily, reminding me of rain. The bloody rain that bonded us together. That rain is no longer. I look up, and all I see is gray. Endless gray skies that never fade.
Tragic visions slowly stole my life
Tore away everything
I hardly remember the time we spent together. All of it is a blur. I know I cannot dwell in the past forever. But I'll try to linger a little while longer. To reminisce with a shadow of the past.
Cheating me out of my time
I'm the one who loves you
No matter wrong or right
If only we met under better circumstances... maybe you'd still be alive today. Maybe we'd be happy, living in a little cottage in the countryside. Maybe when I wake, you'll still be here. But those are just foolish dreams. I know you had to die to show me how to love.
And every day I hold you
I hold you with my inner child
If I hadn't killed Akira that night, if he hadn't put up a fight... we would have never met. I'm glad I spilt his blood that night, as cruel and selfish as that sounds.
It's serenity
In a place where I can hide
I know you betrayed me. But does it matter? Does it truly matter? No. All I wanted was your love. Nothing else mattered.... nothing but you. You completed me, saved me from my own insanity.
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by
10 years. 10 years of wandering to atone for the lives I stole so cruelly. But mostly... to atone for your life. I don't know why you did something so foolish as to try to stop the fight, but you did. Why would you do something like that for me? All I did was cause you pain from the moment I was sent on that assignment. And yet... you still helped me. You loved me. I just don't understand.
How... how can I find my peace... when you are the only one that can hold it?
As I sit here and slowly close my eyes
I take another deep breath
And feel the wind pass through my body
No one told me this life would be easy. I assumed everything would turn out alright. I thought Kami-sama (God) was on my side. How wrong I was. Then again, maybe I deserve this. After all, I chose this path. The decision was mine and mine alone. Demo... but it isn't fair!
I'm the one in your soul
Reflecting the light
Protect the ones who hold you
Cradling your inner child
Life isn't fair. Scars, sighs, whimpers, fireflies... and just when you think you can't get enough it comes and haunts you again. Up, down, left, right.... too many decisions to make. A thousand outcomes escaping out of one sentence.
It's serenity
In a place where I can hide
I thought it was safe to cry. Just one small moment for self-pity, then I would be on the move again. One fragile moment to breathe everything in. One moment to relax.
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by
Never let your guard down. Not even for a moment. In that one moment, you could loose someone. The only one you trust. Think about it. One, maybe two seconds... and the whole reason for your existence would vanish off the face of the earth.
Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Life is precious. Wait, let me rephrase that... EVERY life is precious. I used to think only the people that I cared for, only their lives meant something in this god-forsaken world. I was selfish and immature. You never know how important someone is until it's too late....
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control
Sometimes I look at my hands, they are covered in blood. In her blood. And suddenly I'm back to where I started. The snow is falling steadily, reminding me of rain. The bloody rain that bonded us together. That rain is no longer. I look up, and all I see is gray. Endless gray skies that never fade.
Tragic visions slowly stole my life
Tore away everything
I hardly remember the time we spent together. All of it is a blur. I know I cannot dwell in the past forever. But I'll try to linger a little while longer. To reminisce with a shadow of the past.
Cheating me out of my time
I'm the one who loves you
No matter wrong or right
If only we met under better circumstances... maybe you'd still be alive today. Maybe we'd be happy, living in a little cottage in the countryside. Maybe when I wake, you'll still be here. But those are just foolish dreams. I know you had to die to show me how to love.
And every day I hold you
I hold you with my inner child
If I hadn't killed Akira that night, if he hadn't put up a fight... we would have never met. I'm glad I spilt his blood that night, as cruel and selfish as that sounds.
It's serenity
In a place where I can hide
I know you betrayed me. But does it matter? Does it truly matter? No. All I wanted was your love. Nothing else mattered.... nothing but you. You completed me, saved me from my own insanity.
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by
10 years. 10 years of wandering to atone for the lives I stole so cruelly. But mostly... to atone for your life. I don't know why you did something so foolish as to try to stop the fight, but you did. Why would you do something like that for me? All I did was cause you pain from the moment I was sent on that assignment. And yet... you still helped me. You loved me. I just don't understand.
How... how can I find my peace... when you are the only one that can hold it?
