Once again, I sat there, at the windowsill and watched the silent and night sky. No stars tonight, nor was there a moon, only a dark atmosphere that surrounded the place, a very lonely night. The more I look at it, the more silent and lonely it grew. Another thing, it started to rain. What's funny is that every time it rains at night, is they people can never see the rain. Have you ever notice that? You can't see rain drops, but can only feel and hear it.. cold..wet.. tap tap tap tap...But another thing is that rain tonight is more like tears rather than normal. Is the sky crying? Onegai, don't cry. Yes, like tears despite it cold. Rain. It hides itself at night and hoping that people won't notice the sky's shed tears, but everybody knows jus by hearing it falling and the weather. Cold. Lonely.
Why? Why is this night so much like me? I guess I have told you. I shed tears but not the visible ones. But people really can hear my cries. Just looking at this dark sky, it relates to many of my experience. I just don't understand why, why don't they see my tears but only hear my cries? Why? And why does people can't see the droplets at night but only hear them? It's just unfair, how life is, that is.
Living in the darkness, like this, really is safer, I admit as actual fact. Now why? You ask me? Because when trying to obtain happiness, people end up driven away. To the dark, so why not stay there? I find it funny, very funny, I also wanted something.. love.. trust.. friends.. hope.. but I can never obtain it, so I just put a mask on, a smile, so people think that I do have happiness within me. But in reality, I'm just, like them, like you. Unhappy. In the dark. So that's why I might as well stay in the dark, not letting people hurt you, just staying put in a safe shell, keeping no emotions nor any feelings.
Tap..tap..tap..tap.. Each single rain drop alone cannot be heard, unnoticed. But with many, together, people can hear them. Just like me, I guess. One mere cry from me won't be recognised, but if I make it louder, perhaps, jus perhaps, that they will notice me. That's what I'd hope, wish.
ahehehe... this just a 400 word scribble I just wrote, the night I wrote this is EXACTLY how it's set up in here, I thought that I could jus write somefing.. and I wonder if you know who this person is and is you could point out the clues... this realy isn't my style of writing.. no flames, ty. ttfn. Oh and one more thing, I do NOT know where im going with this drabble.. lol... -.-''
