I'm Done

Maybe you aren't to blame, like I thought. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe it's my fault that it hurt so much. I was the idiot who trusted you with my heart. I was the one who thought you were different. I should have known that you weren't. That's not your fault. That's just who you are. Can't change that.

I can't believe I did it again. I promised myself last time and the time before that, that I wouldn't let it happen again. Obviously I can't keep my promises. Why did I have to fall so hard, so fast? Why couldn't I let my heart repair itself after last time? I'm still not really over that.

Should I really have said all that stuff about you? I was angry at you. I was more angry at myself I now realise. I think I was just misplacing my anger. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I don't think I did though. I think you just had a laugh about it with her. But to be honest, I don't really care anymore.

You can laugh about me with her all you want. Like the Fall Out Boy song says: "I don't care what you think as long as it's about me."

But in all honesty, I think I'm over it now. I don't know how I've bounced back from it so easily after what I was going through. But maybe by going through it all so much and so quickly, that I got it out of my system. I'm much stronger than you give me credit for. I'm stronger than anyone gives me credit for. I'm stronger than I thought.

I really don't care anymore. You could marry her for all I care. Because you aren't worth my time. If you can screw me over like that and if I brood over it for only two days, then maybe I didn't like you as much as I thought.

I'm done with it all.