Rey POVIt felt so easy, just shutting the hatch, but why did my heart hurt. Ben.. The look on his face, the bond forcing the pain in his heart to mirror mine.
Be strong Rey. You are light, he is dark. It will never work, but why does it hurt? Was he telling the truth about my parents?"REY!" Finn is running to me, I can see the look in his eyes. I can feel the emotions of everyone on board. I can feel the force in my very soul. The light.
"I was wondering where you were. Have you been down here for the past few days?" The look, that look, said it all. Comfort him Rey.
"Yes, sorry, it has been a lot to take in. Master Luke is gone, the First Order, just trying to fathom the thought of being the last Jedi.." Yes, I could feel Master Luke in the bond. You are the last Jedi, but this time you are to make it greater, better.Finn grabbed my hand and smiled. My dear friend. One of the only friends I have left. Ben could have been my friend, he could have been my family.'You came from nothing. You are nothing.. But not to me.'The pain came back. The days passed so fast. It was all so much. While in my deep thought, Finn had let go of my hand and gently shook me.
"Hey, Rey, are you okay? You honestly look like you took on Star Killer base by yourself. When was the last time you slept, or ate?" When was the last time i ate or slept? Yesterday? The day before?
"Finn I promise I am okay. How is Rose?" I ask, rising to go with him to get something to eat, my stomach really was hungry.
"She isn't awake yet, but she is breathing and that is more than I could ask for. She saved my life. I want to be able to save her life as well." We make our way to everyone making plans, eating, discussing what the Rebellion can do next.
I look over at everyone, we are all that is left. This is all my fault. If I was stronger, I could have saved more lives. If I took his hand, would he have let everyone live?Rey! How are you?" I could hear Poe above everyone else conversing.
"I am fine, tired. I never realized the Force could take so much out of someone. Is everyone okay? Do you need me to do anything?" I ask as he gives me a tray with some food, and a small porg on his shoulder. I smile and take a bite of the bread.
"We are fixing to land on Trostin, it is a Rebel planet, far from the First Order. We need supplies and to fill up, and honestly," Poe looks at everyone then back at me, "I think everyone could use some fresh air and just a little hope." I smile at him. He is such a handsome man, so proud and fearless. Why couldn't I find someone like him.
I pull myself from the thought and walk over to Chewie and relieve him of the controls. Poe follows and takes the seat next to me. He wants to say something, but remains silent.
"You can tell me, I promise I won't say anything to anyone else." I lean up and start flipping switches and set course to touch down on the green and forested planet.
"It is nothing, just glad you are okay. We were all VERY worried about you. Lei.. I mean the General was worried about you the most, but told us to leave you alone." He grabs my right hand and gently squeezes it, "I am very sorry about Luke Skywalker. He saved us, he saved you. I hope he can help guide us through this mess of a war." He squeezes one more time and lets go. Leaving me with my thoughts. We fly, in silence, till we touch down in a small field next to a town.
I smile softly at him and nod, "I think i owe the best pilot we have a drink". I release the hatch and let everyone discend into the field. The planet, so green and alive, reminds me of the first time I met Kylo Ren. No Ben, he is still in there, somewhere.
Then, before I can leave the cockpit of the Falcon, he is there, rubbing his eyes while saying something on hit cot.
"Ben?" I say, before he looks at me. All the pain, rage, betrayel, and disgust hits me through our bond.
Kylo Ren POV
Why? Why is she here? Why are we still connected through this bond? I look her up and down, she is so thin, she looks just as broken as I feel.
"Why? Why did you leave me?" All I can do is ask. I cant see where she is, or anything but her in that seat my father used to sit in on his adventures.
"Why couldn't you let the light in?" The tears showed. I could feel the pain, but she was trying to be strong.
"You remind me, of the old me, the me that died. I was stupid, scared, and believed I could change the Jedi Order. When will you see you are like me? That we could rule this galaxy, we could change it all." I want to feel her again, skin on skin just as we did when she was in that hut. Rey, you mean so much to me.
I keep eye contact, I don't want her to leave me again. Why did she have to close the door? Why did she give me that look, the look of hate? I wanted to hate her, to slay her down, watch the life leave her. Can you do it though? Can you be the one to see her die?My parents, you were right," she was barely whispering to me, but I could feel her pain, her loneliness. It was so much.
"I never wanted to believe it, to think I was no one special, to know I was never wanted." The tears fell down her face, and in that moment, I wanted to be the one to comfort her. I could feel the bond starting to fade.
"I miss you, Ben.. Please, come back.." I could feel her want. She cared about me, or Ben.
"Ben is gone, he died with Han, but.. I miss you Rey, please come to your senses and join me," Why couldn't I just hug her? Make her feel better?
Before I could move, I hear the pilot, Poe Damermon, come in. He can't see me, but he walks to Rey and asks if she is okay. I feel the emotions he has for her. For my girl, my Rey. Rage consumes me as the last thing I see is him pulling her into a hug, trying to comfort her.
"NO!" I scream, grabbing my saber and destroying my room, breaking everything in sight.
I need to take her back, MY REY! My Light! I won't let that damn pilot win her!I leave my quarters, and order my room be put back together before I return. The stormtroopers nod and hurry along. Fear. It is all I know. It is all I can show. For her I could be kind.
"Hux! We will find the Rebel's base, and when we do, we will leave no one alive but the Jedi girl. Understood?" This man, I wish I could just throw him into space and be done with him, but I need him at least for now.
"Sir, shouldnt we worry about our men and getting our ships back up and running. There can't be but thirty or fourty of them left." Hux was proving to be difficult. Before I know what I am doing, he is in the air gasping for life. You will follow orders!
"You will do as your Supreme Leader orders, do you understand?" He nods as he claws at his neck. I release him, and he plumets to the ground.
"Yes Supreme Leader, we will find them." He gasps for breath. as everyone else looks busy.
"I expect a full report in an hour," I order as I walk off. I will not let anyone live. Just her. Only her.
You are weak! You let your feelings get in the way. You are going to bring the first order in ruin, all because of a scavenger girl. My girl. My Rey. She will follow by my side. I will make sure of it.Walking to my quarters, I form a plan to make sure the next time I see her, she will join me. I won't let her get away again. Join me or die. Is all I send through our bond.
