This is my first songfic and I wanted to do the whole song but this is really just my first try at it so let me know if you guys like it!
By the way it's Moving On by Kodaline.
—
I met you on the corner of the street
I smiled before I even heard you speak
I can accept we're growing older but
I guess that's just the way it has to be
You were walking down the streets of New York, on your way back home, when you passed by a familiar face, sitting outside an Italian restaurant. Somehow, you kept eye contact for a few seconds, trying to make sure you weren't just seeing things, until you decided she was real. You came into a complete stop and gave her a warm smile.
She looked more beautiful now, it seems the years were good to her. Her features were sharper, more well-defined. Her brown eyes were warm, with a few lines just peeking on their sides, but still beautiful. You suddenly remember how right you were when you first swore to her that she had the most beautiful brown eyes you have ever seen in your entire life.
She stood up and smiled widely as she hugs you, and you let out the breath you didn't know you were holding in.
—
It's funny how you still remembered me
I heard you settled down and that you married happily
Do you remember when I told you that I loved you to the bottom of the sea?
I know it's over but I guess that's just the way it has to be
She has been taking care of you all day.
She skipped work, went out to buy you chicken noodle soup, ran to the pharmacy to buy you your medicine and even cuddled up with you when you were cold (despite your insistent no's). Now you're tucked in bed, your fever not going down anytime soon. You could tell, because you just saw a goat on the foot of the bed, and there's no way a goat could be on the foot of the bed.
You could feel the mattress sink down beside you as she climbs in. She feels your forehead for a few seconds and finally moves closer to you, tangling her limbs to yours. You tell her you don't want to get her sick. She tells you to shut up.
You smile, the first genuine one you've had since the damned flu took you down. "Lexie. I love you so fucking much."
You could almost swear you saw her smile.
—
Sometime in the future maybe we can get together
Maybe share a drink and talk a while
And reminisce about the days when we were still together
Maybe someday further down the line
And I will meet you there
You watch her as she's sitting on the bench in the residents' lounge, staring at the floor.
You had a big argument three days ago and you could see how it took a toll on her. She left before things could get worse, so you assumed she's been staying at Meredith's.
"I miss you." You blurt out of nowhere, not being able to stop yourself and she looks up at you with sad eyes. Your heart breaks a little. You mentally punish yourself for doing this to her.
She stands up slowly and moves closer to you. She looks at you for a while before leaning in to kiss you. You respond, and pull her closer, because you really did miss her and you just want to comfort her.
She pulls away, blushing, and you felt yourself smile when she asks, "Can I come home?"
—
Sometime in the future we can share our stories
When we won't care
About all of our mistakes, our failures, and our glories
But until that day comes along, I'll keep on moving on
You stare at her long after she's pulled away from the hug, attempting to memorize the features of her face you've long forgotten... not really.
You still have a box of old photos of the two of you hidden in a locked drawer in your room. But she doesn't need to know that.
"So, I heard you and Avery got hitched." You say, surprised your tone was even. "You did great, Lex."
She smiles a little too widely for your liking, avoiding your eyes. She doesn't know you had to spit that last part out. "Yeah. I uh, I did. I'm— I'm happy."
You nod, afraid she'll say any more. You are happy she is happy, because for years now, when your mind wonders to her, that is what you see. A smiling, happy Lexie. It's what she always deserved.
And you, you probably deserve to be happy too. But you've given up on that five years ago, when you've lost the love of your life. You're staring at her now, and you think, you did good too.
You gave her a chance to be happy. Genuinely happy. But as you realize the way you still watch her do her little habits, and the way your insides suddenly feel alive when she gives you a friendly smile, it is then that you know — you'll never move on.
