Author's Note: So I originally had this posted on my tumbr ( .com) and decided to put this up here on FF as well. This is a R!Au with R!Nat and R!Edd. So, if you are not a fan of either of those this is probably not the story for you. Trigger warnings abound as well. Nat belongs to C2ndy 2c1d and R!Au belongs to Asphyxion. Both of tumblr. Also, none of these chapters are edited cause I'm a lazy fuck so if anyone would like to beta for me, that'd be awesome.
There was something off about this particular Monday, and Eddward could not put his finger on what it was. He sat in his AP chemistry class and tried to figure it out. The swimmer really had no need to pay attention, as he had already done most of the work for the class. He leaned back in his chair and looked up to the ceiling. Once he figured it out, he realized why he felt so off. He hadn't seen the nerdy red head around anywhere today. Eddward had seen the boy's friends, but he was not with them. Come to think about it, they looked pretty out of it today as well.
He realized he had never heard back from Kevin since Sunday morning as well, before he went for a ride on that horrible dirt bike Kevin loved so much. The two of them had been talking quite a bit lately, and the teasing had lessened from Edd. Being the start of their senior year, Eddward realized that if he wanted a relationship with Kevin he would have to jump on the chance now. He made the decision that if he didn't see Kevin by the end of the day, he would ask his friends where the nerd was at.
The day drug on, and before long it was lunch time. He had still not seen Kevin, but noticed Nat and Nazz sitting at their table, looking somber. Dread started to fill Edd and he didn't know why. Maybe Kevin was sick today? Even so, Edd couldn't remember a time when Kevin had missed school just for being sick. His foot started to shake, as it did when he was in deep thought. Johnny and Jimmy knew not to inturrupt Edd when he got like this, so they just continued to eat in silence.
He wasn't even paying attention in his classes. He couldn't pay attention with his anxiety rising. He had already sent three text messages to Kevin's phone, and had not received a reply. He knew something was wrong, but he hoped he was just over reacting. He tried to tell himself that the red head's phone had died or that Edd had just pissed him off some how. He'd go to the boy's house and see him there working on his robots or something.
The end of the day finally came and still no reply from Kevin. He refreshed his messages over and over again. It was not like him to not keep his composure, but this was an exception. It had always been known that he worried about Kevin, even when he was picking on him. If he had hurt Kevin, Eddward went out of his way to make it up.
He caught Kevin's green haired friend and Nazz over at his locker and ran to him. "Nathan!" Edd shouted. Nat turned to see him and his eyes were puffy and red, like he had been crying. Nazz was not any better. He stopped when he saw their faces and was preparing for the worst.
"Can we help you, Edd?" Nazz said, harshness in her voice.
He took in a breath, "I have not seen quiz bowl all day. May I inquire where he is?"
They both looked stunned, as they had expected Eddward to be the first to hear about what happened. "Edd," Nat began, "Kevin…he passed away on Sunday. He had an accident on his dirt bike."
The ravenette could feel the color drain from his face. His breath hitched in his throat and he could have sworn he felt his heart stop for just a second. His eyes were wide and he was at a loss for words. Kevin was dead? No, that was wrong. They had just spoken on Sunday. There was no way he was dead.
"I don't believe you," He finally blurted out.
Nazz looked stunned and angry, "It wasn't an accident Nat. You and I both know the real reason. He let go of the bike handles on purpose and it was because of you Eddward."
She stormed off and Nat chased after her. All Edd could do was stand there in disapproval. The world felt like it had stopped around him, and he had no idea what to do. Died because of him? Was that really the reason, or words just spoken out of anger? Edd snapped out of his trance and walked to his locker to gather his things. He felt numb.
