Author: Elliot

Elliot:-looks around before letting out a sigh of relief-Thank god he isn't here. Anyways folks can't stay for long. Have to visit Sasuke in the hospital (Avenger has one mean punch). Anyway this is my first time writing something remotely sad. So be nice and review lots.

Warning: Slash!

Disclaimer: DO NOT OWN HARRY POTTER.


You can't remember how long it's been since you arrived here. Has it been three years? Five years? Or maybe even six? You aren't sure. You lost count after one year and sixty days since you started in that horrible, vile place.

Now you truly realize, you can finally comprehend how awful this place really is. That the stories you heard from people who have been here in Azkaban, the bad and nasty stories, weren't at all exaggerated. Now you can actually understand the pale faced terror of people who have been here, having to experience it.

It takes a couple of moments for you to realize that the dementors guarding your cell left to guard other cells, allowing you a moment of clarity. Though it doesn't help much, because now that you can understand the shouts of pureblood supremacy and the Dark Lord coming to save them from your dear cousin and other filthy Death Eaters from neighboring cells.

You can't help the deep feeling of disgust and contempt that flows through your veins. You have always hated your family for their behavior, their belief s and everything they stand for. And you can't help but think bitterly that no one will think that you are any different from any members of your family due to the betrayal and deceit of the disgusting rat. No one, not even his Moony.

Thinking about Remus hurt. It hurt a lot. It's bad enough that you that you have to repeatedly remember watching the dead faces of his best mate and his wife. To see the dead faces of Lily and James Potter and the terrified cries that came from Harry, who was almost buried under a pile of rubbles. To have every happy thoughts and every happy feeling sucked out of you.

But it's always worse when you remember Remus. Remus, who now also thinks that you are no different from the rest of your family. Probably cursing himself right now for ever trusting you. Sweet, innocent Remus whom you thought were the spy, a traitor. Your Remus, who you love with all your heart. Moony, who always cared for you.

As the dementors come back and you curl up on the floor as Padfoot, you can't help but think that he won't care now.


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