SHE WILL BE LOVED - CHAPTER ONE - Wishful thinking
Cast -
Pixie – Pixie Lott
Heath – Heath ledger (R.I.P)
I was stupid. I was in love. I was thirteen.
Heath was too old for me. He was my best friend's brother. He had messy brown hair and that crinkly smile that always sent me in a daze. I was literally Bella and him, Edward, the way he made me feel. He had that really deep voice that all the girls loved. The hot body, the sense of humour. He was seventeen.
His sister Taylor was just like me, probably why we got along so well. He hung around the house, always said hello. I always got flustered and embarrased around him. The normal teenage crush. But it wasn't just a crush to me...Not that he would ever think of me that way.
I had braces, wore contact lenses and was quite short. My hair is naturally blonde and my eyes a deep green. Taylor had lovely blonde ringlets and was an amazing country and rock singer. It was her dream to be a sucessful singer.
Me, I guess I didn't know. I was a great dancer I have to admit, took after my mom. But I was too shy to dance in front of people. I liked singing too but again, too shy. I just kinda stuck with telling everyone I was gonna be a journalist.
I always was self conscious. Pictures of me back then still make me cringe. I never smiled always tried to hide my face and family photos just made me shudder. Now I'm not too bad…but I'm talking about a thirteen year old me so let's get on with it…Heath right.
He was utterly gorgeous. I just wish….wish what? I would have made my move when I had the chance? And a seventeen year old going out with a short, just turned thirteen year old wouldn't have been weird at all?? Not to mention the fact he never EVER liked me THAT way! I guess I just wish I was older. Yeah older.
Sometimes I wished I didn't have any feelings whatsoever for him. But I would be lying. Just watching him enter the room, do that irrestible smile, made my day. It also made my heart ache. Especially when he had girlfriends. I remember to this day his first girlfriend, Ashley. She had long dark blonde hair and kind of talked and looked like Serena from Gossip Girl. He dated her for 3 months. Then it was Kate. She had unnaturally blonde curly hair and pouty pink lips. She was tall and had a great personality and dress sens, irritably enough. He only dated her a month though and then it was onto another Ashley, this time with brown hair and a big smile and really annoying voice.
I could go on forever and I know it's sad I remember this stuff.I just wish I could go back now and see him and tell him how I felt.
He'd be twenty one now. College. I just wish I could have seen him one last time. I wish he'd see me now and tell me I'm beautiful.
I wish the guy I end up marrying and have children with could be him. But it's all wishful thinking
