A/N This is a songfic in tribute to one of the best shows ever, Sailor Moon. Technically it's written for Twilight, but the song is from Sailor Moon and is from a really sad scene when Sailor Moon (Bunny) discovers that she is the long lost Moon Princess while at the same time loses her only love Darien, again. So I figured that the love Bella ad Edward share would as be perfect since Bella would mourn Edward the same that Bunny would mourn Darien.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight it's unfortunate really and quite sad to but this plot is mine happy to say. I also don't own the song My Only Love that belongs to someone named Bengiat according to the case, whatever that means. However Internet Lyric websites read that Jennifer Love Hewitt also sang it.
As Alice and I raced into Volterra I had a thought 'what if we didn't reach Edward fast enough? What if he managed to work his way around Alice's vision and got himself killed?' No, I can't think like that, think positive Bella, Edward will be okay. He has to be. Whatever, I don't have time to think I merely need to get over there and prevent Edward from dying. And there he was. Edward my beautiful angel. Standing in the sun with all of the light sparkling- wait! No! He's not supposed to do that in public! Then suddenly, a vampire appeared, almost too fast to see and Edward fell to the ground. The vampire knocked him underneath the clock tower and carried him away under the cover of the shadows.
"Edward!" I heard a voice scream "Edward come back! Edward! Get up Godamnit!" I realized that it was my own voice, screaming for Edward. Alice picked me up and ran after them chasing down the Volturi's henchmen. All the way I screamed hard ,my voice constantly being interrupted by my sobs "Edward get up! Wake Up! EDWARD! EDWARD!" We finally caught up behind them and dropped into a little trap door that the men had just disappeared through.
Alice turned to me. "Bella, I'm going down there OK? I want you to stay here and wait for me. Alright?" I shook my head at her. "Bella. Please, I don't have time to convince you. Just stay here, I'm begging you. Please Bella? Please?" I shook my head at her again. "BELLA!" I shook when I heard her yell. I've never heard sweet, silly Alice scream, ever. "Bella, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled at you. That was out of line. Just stay here please? I need to get Edward out of there or else I don't know what they'll do to him. Please Bella. Please? I can move faster without you, you know that so just stay here and don't go anywhere!" Then she disappeared down the hatch.
Twenty minutes later Alice came clambering out of the hole empty-handed. "H-He-He's gone!" She whispered, so low that I almost couldn't hear her. "Th-they k-k-k-killed him!" She fell to the floor heaving dry sobs.
"What? What do you mean? Where is he? Alice, if he died there would be a body! He can't be dead." But despite my rational words I knew he was gone.
"Bella, the only way to kill a vampire is t-to burn their body" she pointed to a chimney that was spewing purplish smoke not to far away from us. "See that smoke? That's all that's left of him. Bella sweetie, he's gone."
"No, no he can't be gone he just can't. How could he leave me like that?! Why would he do that? Why?" Then I couldn't take it anymore. I just crumpled to the floor and began to sob. I curled up into a fetal position right on the cobbled sidewalk and cried. And when I had no tears left I screamed. I screamed for Edward, calling out his name. Luckily, all of the people celebrating St. Marcus's Day just kept out of the shadowed alley when they heard my screams. That night, when my sobs had subsided, we took a plane back to Alaska. There we had to tell everyone what had happened. We all then returned to Forks and told everyone else.
The story was that he had gotten caught up in some gang warfare in LA since that was supposedly where they all lived. Since hey had lived there they had buried him there. I couldn't believe that Edward, my lovely angel, was gone forever.
Deep in my soul
Love so strong
It takes control
Now we both know
The secrets bared
The feelings show
Driven far apart
I'll make a wish
On a shooting star
Edward was my life, my love…my everything. And he was gone forever. I couldn't believe that I would never see that crooked smile, or those warm golden eyes ever again.
There will come a day
Somewhere far away
In your arms I'll stay
My only love
Even though you're gone
Love will still live on
The feeling is so strong
My only love
Alice frequently drove me to his grave; a memorial that stands in a cemetery in Los Angeles, to keep up the pretense of him having truly died of a gang shootout. There I would walk over to his grave and curl up beside the headstone, engraved with "Here lies Edward Anthony Mason Cullen Born on March 27th 1990, Died on May 14th 2007" Naturally, they couldn't put the real year he was born. Alice usually had to pick me up off of the grave and support me back into the car. I slowly began to revert back to my zombie self. Charlie began to worry, and with summer quickly approaching he had no choice other than to let me go to the Cullens. Charlie merely tiptoed around me now and I never ate unless someone forced me to. Edward finally got what he wanted, to die with me. Honestly, it's kind of the other way. When he died I died. Not my body, but my sole reason to be on this world was gone. The love of my life was gone, and yet, everyone told me that it would be OK. That it would get better. Jacob had come a couple of times, but when he realized how much I was pining over Edward he was quickly disgusted, and hasn't talked to me since. Every time I came over, Esme, Alice, and Rosalie all try to console me. I know they all hurt, but it couldn't hurt as badly as it did for me. I had finally realized again that Edward loved me with all of his forever frozen heart, and before I could tell him that I too loved him that much, he was taken away from me.
There will come a day
Somewhere far away
In your arms I'll stay
My only love
You've reached the deepest part
Of the secret in my heart
I've known it from the start
My only love
This is why I've decided that I'm going to meet my angel. I'm gong to die. And nobody can stop me. I've been constantly changing ideas in my head so that Alice can't tell what I'm about to do, between different suicide ideas, to staying alive and trying to get Jacob to fall in love with me. Which may I say I'm not going to do. He's my best friend, but I don't, and never will, like him like that.
Really, suicide isn't so bad, my soul is already dead, I'm just killing my body now too.
I love you Edward, and I'll see you soon.
There will come a day
Somewhere far away
In your arms I'll stay
My only love
My only love
Alice came rushing in. "Bella you can't do this! Please Bella don't! I'm begging you don't do this!"
I just smiled at her "Sorry Alice, it's too late. I'm going to see Edward. Give everyone my love. I love you Alice. You were one of the best friends ever."
"Bella, Bella!" she sobbed "How could you do this to me. Think about Charlie, and Renee, she'll go crazy." I just kept smiling Alice's voice was getting further and further away. "Bella? Bella! Bella!" I was gone. Gone to rejoin Edward.
