I wrote this some time last year, and only came across it in my notebook recently. I thought it was alright, so I decided to let others read it.


Tawnypaw sat down on the edge of the Thunderpath, staring across at ShadowClan territory. She sighed, and as she raised her patched muzzle to the starry sky she thought of her father, Tigerstar.

I wait for the postman

To bring me a letter

And I wait for the good Lord

To make me feel better

And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders

Family in crisis that only grows older

Tawnypaw was sick and tired of how she and Bramblepaw were being treated as outcasts. If Tigerstar had never left, none of this conflict would have happened. Surely he couldn't be fully evil, like everyone thought.

Why'd you have to go?

Why'd you have to go?

Why'd you have to go?

Daughter to father

Daughter to father

I am broken

But I am hoping

Tawnypaw wondered if Tigerstar might repent his ways. Maybe he'd take some pride in his new Clan, and leave ThunderClan alone.

Daughter to father

Daughter to father

I am crying

A part of me is dying

She hated the shadow hanging over her. Couldn't her Clan accept her for who she was, rather than who her father was?

And these are

These are

The confessions

Of a broken heart

Of a broken heart

Tawnypaw scuffed the ground angrily with a forepaw. No one, not even Bramblepaw, could truly understand how she felt.

And I wear all your old clothes

Your old polo sweater

And I dream of another you

She wished Tigerstar was just some ordinary cat. Then they could be a real family, and she wouldn't have to live an over-shadowed existence.

One who would never

Never leave me alone

To pick up the pieces

Daddy to hold me

That's what I needed

Tawnypaw couldn't admit it, but she wished Tigerstar had shown more emotion towards her. She was his daughter, for StarClan's sake!

So why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go?

Daughter to father

Daughter to father

I don't know you

But I still want to

Yes, Tawnypaw wished she knew her father more. She clung to her one strand of hope - he couldn't be all that bad.

Daughter to father

Daughter to father

Tell me the truth

Did you ever love me

Did Tigerstar love her? Tawnypaw doubted it. She'd only ever met him once, after all.

Cause these are

These are

The confessions

Of a broken heart

Of a broken heart

Tawnypaw felt like she was being torn apart. She loved Bramblepaw and Goldenflower, but she didn't want to go back to ThunderClan. Even her own mentor, Brackenfur, was wary around her.

I love you

I love you

I love you

I….

I love you

Maybe… she thought. Maybe she could get away from it all. Maybe she could leave ThunderClan.

Daughter to father

Daughter to father

I don't know you

But I still want to

Excitement prickled her paws. She could leave ThunderClan and join ShadowClan! Tigerstar would be delighted, and she wouldn't have to worry about her uncertain loyalty to ThunderClan.

Daughter to father

Daughter to father

Tell me the truth

Did you ever love me?

Did you ever love me?

But would Tigerstar really accept her into the Clan? Other doubts crept into Tawnypaw's mind… what about Bramblepaw?

These are…are

The confessions

Of a broken heart

No, Tawnypaw decided. She'd stay here - here with her birth Clan. She stood up and padded back through the thick undergrowth - but she was unable to resist a glance back at ShadowClan territory.

Ohhh…yeah

I wait for the postman

To bring me a letter