Intro: Takes place after Breaking Dawn. Everything is how it ends in the book. Everything. R+R please and thankyou!

"Almost Lover"

My new life with Edward was good. No, that was a severe understatement. It was great, wonderful, perfect. But I knew it was coming to an end. Sooner or later, the small green town of Forks would no longer hold the Cullen coven. This fact was always at the back of my mind. Intruding into every thought and every plan. I spent hours pondering how our departure would unfold. Would we leave quietly, sneaking away at nightfall so no-one could miss us? Would we throw a party and say our goodbyes properly? I know which one Alice would rather do, but I preferred the first. There were too many people we would have to hurt. Charlie. How could I leave him? Take away his only daughter and grandaughter. I couldn't bear to say a last goodbye. What about my friends, Mike, Angela, Ben, Jess? I would miss them, that's for sure. And Jacob. Jake. I would die without his friendship, but it wasn't me I was concerned about. Poor Jake, he would have to choose between the object of his imprint and his brothers(and sister); his pack. Could he leave his tribe to go live with a coven of vampires? I didn't want him to have to choose. I felt sick every second I thought about this, so I tried not to dwell on it. But this devestating scenario always drove its way to the front of my thoughts. I was dreading the day it would no longer be possible for us to stay in Forks.

*****

I was in one of those moods, where your mind disconnects from your body, and you are floating out there in space, completely unaware of what your physical self may be doing. I was sitting and staring and humming all at the one time, in the back garden of our small cottage. I must have been thinking about our departure again, as the tune I was humming was slow, soft and sad. I was completely lost, just a statue out there among the flowers and grass. The only thing that snapped me out of my trance was a movement next to me. Edward sat beside me on the cool grass, a small smile lingering in the corner of his mouth.

"Nessie's asleep." He said. Was it that late already? How long had I been here humming? I didn't speak.

"Are you okay?" He enquired.

"Yeah." I answered simply. "Just thinking." I knew what was coming next. The mixture of frustration and confusion in his eyes was nothing new to me.

"About what?" He asked lightly, trying to sound as casual as possible under his obvious annoyance. I looked at him and laughed. "Just stuff, you know?" I knew that would kill him. "The future, that kind of thing" I added, feeling guilty. He sighed.

"Bella, you shouldn't keep thinking about this. I know it's hard for you, but you're just going to worry about it more and more and it's not going to go away." I didn't say anything. I couldn't. I looked away, and picked one of the lilac coloured flowers from a bush nearby. I twirled it between my fingers and sighed.

"What were you singing?" I looked up, his eyes were curious. An obvious subject change, but this had taken me by surprise.

"What?" I asked, genuinely confused. "I wasn't singing."

"Yes you were. I didn't recognise the song." I must have been in more of a daze than I had thought. Singing! Ew. How embarrassing.

"What did it sound like?" I asked. He returned my question with a puzzled look.

"Umm, the part I heard was... something about spanish lullabies? Oh, and palm trees, swaying in the breeze."

"The wind." I corrected, then realised the song I must have been singing. One of my own. "Oh." He detected the change in my mood immediatley.

"What is the song? I've never heard it before." I looked up at him, I could tell my expression was pained.

"Oh, it was just something I was mucking around with one day... I wrote it ages ago... its really bad... you don't want to hear it.." I mumbled.

"Wait- you wrote a song? I didn't know you wrote songs." He looked delighted. Oh dear.

"I don't- I mean, I wrote a couple but they're really lame. Its nothing, really." Why wouldn't he just drop this?

"Can I hear it?" He asked. "Will you sing it for me?" I looked down at the flower in my hands, which I had absent mindedly shredded to pieces. "No." I kept my gaze down, fearing if I looked up, I would end up singing him the song that would break his heart. "Please?" He purred, in his seductively velvet voice. I sighed.

"You don't want to hear it."

"Yes I do."

"No, you don't" I said forcefully, my voice raised a fraction louder. He drew back, I thought I had won. But when he looked at me with those liquid topaz eyes, I knew I could never win with Edward. I groaned.

"You aren't going to like it. I really don't want to do this." I warned him. I flashed him a glare and took a deep breath.

*(Song is 'Almost Lover' by A Fine Frenzy. Download it, its an awesome song!)*

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I didn't look at him through the whole song. When I finished, I felt as if I was going to be sick. He was silent for a long moment, before he finally spoke.

"When I left...?" he whispered.

"Yes." I replied.

"I didn't know you felt that way." I was looking at the flower again. If you could call it a flower anymore.

"I'm sorry." I said after another long moment of silence. "I told you you wouldn't like it"

"What?" He said suddenly, looking at me. " I love it. Its a beautiful song, you are a talented songwriter and an amazing singer, did you know that?" I didn't answer his question.

"But how can you like it?" I looked at him in disbeleif. A sad smile crept up the edges of his mouth.

"I love the song- I hate what its about. I hate that I caused this to be written. I hate that I caused you such pain." He picked up my hand and kissed it softly. I exhaled deeply.

"But I'm serious, you know. You have an amazing voice, and I'm not just saying that because I'm your husband." I rolled my eyes.

"Seriously Bella! I think you have a real talent. I know this girl, her name his Andrea, and she manages aspiring musicians. I think I should give her a call." He smiled a coy little smile.

"No way! What are you thinking Edward! Me, a singer? Not going to happen." I shook my head roughly.

"She could get you a couple of shows, just at the local bar or something. She would organise the band, backups, rehearsals. All you would have to do is show up and sing." I sighed in frustration.

"No, Edward." He looked at me pleadingly. "No." I said finally and folded my arms.