Burning Regret
"The Long Firm" Harry/Tommy
Set after the last scene of The Long Firm, episode 2, Ruby's Story.
I clenched my fists, as Ruby left the room. Then I stood up and screamed, the pain and self-loathing in my heart too much for me to bare. Then I reached into my pocket, producing a small knife. I waited only moments before plunging it into my arm. I cried out as the pain washed over me, and then I screamed until my voice went ragged, "I loved you Tommy, I loved you. I loved you - Fuck, god dammit!" Then the tears finally came and I sank to the floor, sobbing like a child. I wish he had shot me fatally that night. If he had, I wouldn't be feeling such burning regret, regret that keeps me up all hours at night, wishing that the last words I had spoken to Tommy had been, "I love you." But its too late now. I have lost the only person in this world I ever really cared for. And I cannot forgive myself for that: Ever.
