Eridan could feel the words tingle on his tongue every time Sollux was near. They wanted to slip out of the slit of his mouth, every time even a thought occurred of Sollux. However he wasn't going to let that happen, not this time. So Eridan shut himself away from Sollux, his feelings, and the continuous rumors around him. He knew he had to go as far away as possible, so Eridan moved to another state entirely, as far-still close to the water- as he could go. Eridan made sure to beat it in himself that all he needed was those typed words on the computer, and that was it, nothing else, nothing at all. Luckily his move was for the better, since he made a new friend-a best friend to be exact- named Feferi. Also the weight off his shoulders from rumors and love made life a lot easier for him. He was soon able to forget-most of the time- those hidden feelings that lurked in the corner of his heart, just waiting to escape when given the chance. Yet Eridan held firm only letting his thoughts spill out into his journal, which he kept very dear to himself. He yearned for that broken heart, that feeling when your love has been crushed, because he thought anything would be better than this pang in his heart and the tears in his eyes when Sollux was on his mind or talked on the computer to him. He wished so dearly for this yearning to stop, this yearning for a good friend; Eridan felt utterly hopeless, and disgusted with himself as he had these explicit thoughts of his dear Sollux. He knew nothing would come of this depression so he spent his days with as much happiness as could render.
Eridan knew Feferi worried about him deeply, so he always confided in her, telling her his deepest secrets; and in turn Eridan was given much advice about his situation, as was possible from her point of view. Though suddenly his world became turned upside down when Sollux messaged him about why he had moved so far away-because Eridan hadn't told him where or why he moved, and only told Sollux that he had moved, when Sollux had tried to go to his house. Eridan had expected this to happen, so he had a pretty good story made up for this, which he told Sollux. However that smartass knew Eridan to well and told him he wanted the truth and that he wanted to know where Eridan was living. Now the thing was Eridan knew how good Sol was with computers so he inevitably decided to get rid of his, and stupidly went towns over to get on a public computer-paranoid yes, a little overdone of course, but kind of fucking smart-oh hell yes! This is why Eridan didn't feel as scared about having to confront his feelings because Sol had no idea where he lived even if he could trace the computer he used. Though Eridan being his weird self; did stay away from all computers in general just to make sure nothing came of it-thank god Eridan thought as he remembered he got a new phone, with a new number.
Yet this paranoia made another thing happen in retaliation, Sollux stopped messaging him from anger and hurt, even saying he now hated Eridan with a passion. What Sollux didn't expect was that Eridan would be ok with that, even he stopped typing, because to Eridan the words were like a haven, something to break these feelings inside himself; to utterly crush and decapitate them, make them nothing, and it did slightly work. But of course Eridan knew the only way to really finish them off was to confess and then be shut down completely-though it wasn't something he was planning on doing anytime soon. However as days passed he soon became accustomed with no messages from Sollux, even hoping for none to come, because it took away that feeling he so longed to let out, and instead made his life more pleasurable, something of ease. Since as every day passed by he slowly made himself let Sollux leave his mind, only letting those feelings come on his worst days, and he soon became happier, smiling more, and free. Free from everything that had done him wrong, free from his longing, free from the hurt, the pain, the loneliness, and instead what engulfed him was a feeling with a kind of happiness. Even if it was small sometimes, it was still there and he consumed it with every breath he could take and slowly, slowly grew very content.
Years slowly passed by and he had almost entirely forgotten about Sollux, but fate didn't want that to happen it seemed. Because one day, on a day he was leisurely walking the beach and then walked to his car, got in and was about to leave; there he was, Sollux, who was stopped right in front of him. He could see how Sollux's eyes widened to the surprise of seeing his friend after 5 years of no messaging-not even counting the years after Eridan had first moved. Feelings started to rush through Eridan's head, engulfing him with love and pain from seeing Sollux. He knew he had to get out of here, so he quickly got out of the parking lot and drove away, as fast as the speed limit would take him. Out of sheer despair of seeing Sollux again, his only idea was to call Feferi; who told him to meet at her house, which was located on the other side of town. Filled with some relief he made his way to her house not even taking the option of going to his house to get any belongings, out of sheer fear he would see Sollux waiting for him there. He pulled into her long driveway and sped to the door, which to his luck Feferi had open for she had heard his car. As Eridan caught sight of her, he flung himself into her arms starting to weep as these feelings flooded his whole being. She shushed and calmed him as she was very worried for her dear friend, who was now collapsing into her arms. Finally they made it to her couch where Eridan spilled out everything that had just transpired, not forgetting even the smallest part of this endeavor.
Days passed as Eridan stayed at Feferi's house; happy for the summer break from college. Though Eridan knew he needed to get some clothes, but he was honestly too scared to go out even if it was to his house. So instead he asked Feferi to go in his place, she slightly frowned, said no more, and drove to his abode. There she found, sitting by Eridan's doorstep, the boy he loved. He of course gave her a strange look, and then asked where Eridan was. Since of course this boy knew she knew, with her having Eridan's keys and all. She only shrugged knowing she didn't want to harm Eridan, well at least not until he was ready-though she thought he would probably never be ready. The boy who said his name was Sollux didn't take to this very well. He said he had a lot he needed to tell Eridan, and Feferi almost saw a longing in his eyes, however she wasn't sure since it soon flashed away as quick as it came. She shrugged again and decided to just leave instead of getting Eridan's things; but what Feferi really wanted was the boy to follow her car to her house. And to her luck he did just that, however it made her question his motives because she had no idea how this boy felt. Finally when they stopped in her driveway she told him to let himself in and take care of what needed to be done. The boy Sollux had a worried look, but he soon became filled with determination as he strode to the door, opened it and went inside. Feferi's work was done, so she looked to the water and thought, "It seems like a good day to swim."
Eridan had just got out of the shower when he heard the front door open and close. So of course thinking it to be Feferi he walked slowly over to the noise and yelled on his way, "Feferi did you get the clothes I asked you to get?" However instead he found Sollux standing there by the door looking around until he locked on to the shocked form of Eridan, who had wet hair, and only boxers hanging on his waist.
As Sollux saw this he immediately scooped Eridan up into his arms and slowly walked to the closest room he could find. Then slamming Eridan down on the bed Sollux pounced on to him making sure he had Eridan held down so there was no escape. Sollux could see the shocked face of Eridan underneath him, and the way his eyes were wide with horror. However he was mad, underneath him was the person who had left him in the dark, his best friend, who even had stopped messaging him all together-ok well that was partly his fault as well. Sollux had a right to be mad, but for some reason all he could feel was lust for his best friend, and he just couldn't stray his eyes from Eridan's lips. Finally after much struggle he pried his gaze from Eridan's mouth, looked him in the eyes, and said, "Explain. Now."
All Eridan could do to stop the rush of emotion flooding out of him was to bite on his lip and avoid eye contact as much as possible. However it seemed Sollux didn't like that very much, because soon he was holding Eridan's hands in one, and using the other to cup Eridan's face so he could meet his gaze. Eridan so wanted to get away but Sollux was to strong, to where he wasn't able to even try and squirm free. And when he finally met his gaze, he could feel his face slowly start to blush as he remembered the strong eyes that kept him from looking away.
(Ok here is it so far I'm going to stop here and have you guys tell me if you like it or hate it or whatever you think. And if there's anything you think I should do differently in the next chapter I'll change it, so I would love to hear your review, because I'm not very sure about this one. Thanks.)
