Ch.1-Days of Agony

Jacob had left the room, thinking that Bella, my Bella was dead. How selfish was I? I was trying to calm myself by thinking that she wanted me to make her a vampire. By thinking that she wouldn't hate me but love me more when she would wake up. But would she? What if I was too late? What if I had done something wrong. What if-

Jacob's thoughts interrupted me.

Oh my god…what a godlike creature…she's too cute-even in psycho's arms.

I stopped breathing wide-eyed. I was about to run down and rip his stupid head off. How could he imprint at my daughter. Well even if I hated her before, I couldn't now. She had this beautiful eyes….I was out of my seat and I was about to run down when Bella sighed…I wasn't going to leave.

I stayed like a statue…I didn't move until some minutes later Alice came in…

You shouldn't be so angry you know. She thought. She needs you.

"Right" I mumbled, and she was right…Bella needed me…

Let me clean her up and dress her. She thought.

"I don't leave her" I murmured painfully.

"I know" Alice spoke for first time…

Oh…of course she knew she had seen that. Seeing how much it cost me to be away from Bella-she started thinking things that I didn't want to course I didn't! I didn't want to think what I would do if Bella wasn't going to wake up-if I had done something wrong.

"STOP" I yelled.

Sorry. She thought

Anyway take her at the bathroom…but you should see your daughter though. She thought quietly.

"Later" I said

If I had gone down I wouldn't be able to stop myself killing that stupid, bastard mutt. At least he didn't love my Bella more differently than a friend. And Bella's feelings would change for him I knew that.

I took Bella's body in my arms -unable to see her-and carried her at the bathroom. I went out. Alice was right. I shouldn't be angry at him, but I should see her without him.

I went down trying not to rip his poor head off.

Rosalie sat up from the sofa. Giving me the bottle to feed her.

Sorry she was thirsty. She thought.

She was still giving the bottle to me.

"What?" I murmured, stunned.

Edward you are her father, you should learn to feed her.

"I know but-"

She gave her to me. I took her securely but what was I going to do?

"Deal with that" she said."You are lucky she doesn't need diapers"

I took her with a small sigh. She opened her eyes looking at me. At least I wasn't going to lose Bella's eyes.

Jacob's thoughts interrupted me from my reverie again.

I don't know…she has blood in her veins. How will you handle this?

"It's better not to tempt you fate you know!" I yelled.

Try at least you know, that you will lose .He thought.

I growled.

All right, all right. I will never win you, you know that.

I started feeding Renesmee, well it wasn't so difficult.

Her thoughts were only pictures. Colourful pictures. I was glad she wasn't thinking of blood's flavor. It was human blood and I was sure it would be difficult. After some minutes she finished her bottle. She put her little hand on my neck.

I gasped. Well not for her gift-her gift was a very exquisite experience,I knew that from everyone's thoughts, she could show you her thoughts by touching you-I gasped by the image in her head seeing it twice in the same time.

She was asking for her…mother. Bella's image was painful. She was full of blood and-anyway she was waiting for an answer. She understood everything. I was glad that I was prepared from everyone's thoughts. It wasn't the best time to be shocked.

"You are going to see her soon" I mumbled absently. I will be back soon. I kissed her forehead. I was about to give her at Rose but then I understood that everyone had left-giving me privacy with…well with my daughter.

"Rose" I mumbled. She came swiftly. I gave Renesmee at her, exchange a glance with Jacob and left.

I went up. Bella was lying at the bed. Dressed in a blue dress.

I raised one eyebrow at Alice.

I wanted to know if she will like it as a vampire. She thought.

HOW COULD EVERYONE KEEP TEASING AFTER WHAT HAPPENED TO BELLA!?

I sighed to calm myself. I needed to talk at Carlisle. He only knew that Bella was dying and I needed to hear his reassurance.

I took my phone from my pocket and called my father.

"Hello?"Carlisle answered.

"Carlisle it's me"

"Oh Edward! Is everything ok? How's Bella? The fetus? What was inside her?"

"Did you finish?"I asked-my voice shaking a little.

"Well, yeah" he said "Edward tell me, what's going on? You sound a little…"he trailed off.

"Well, I am a little afraid but I will answer to your questions Carlisle" I said."I don't know if everything is ok. The fetus…well it is a girl" Why was I standing at these details?"It is half human. Blood runs in her veins, but she drinks blood. She has a special gift, it's better to see on your own"

"Oh is she healthy?"he asked. Oh right I hadn't said the most important thing.

"Well, yeah. She seems healthy" I answered.

"Wait, what do you mean you don't know if everything is okay?"

"Car-Carlisle...I…" I couldn't finish. How could I say to him that maybe my life won't wake up?!

"Edward?"he asked terrified."What is it?"

I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself.

"I-I am not sure about Bella, I think I was very late-she doesn't even scream!"I whispered.

"Edward maybe it's the morphine-"

"I don't know Carlisle" I cried out."I have done something wrong I am sure for it"I sobbed, tearless. I didn't want to sound weak but I was.

"Edward, son, stop blame yourself everything is going to be fine!I am sure it's the morphine. You don't have to worry about nothing but you have to be strong. She needs you strong."

I sighed. I must be strong. For my daughter, for my wife. For both of her.

"You are right Carlisle. Thanks. I needed to hear that."

"Anytime, son" he said.