Together again

Things between Stephen and I were great at last, we were together properly, it seemed like it had taken forever to get here but we made it, finally. Stephen spent most of his time at mine, it was almost like he lived with me, of course he had his work and I had mine, but every spare moment we had we spent together, it was like we were making up for lost time; nearly nine months worth to be precise.

It took me long enough to realise that I couldn't be without him, I think I've always known it really I just needed something to make me act upon my feelings and Douglas and Stephen nearly getting together was what it took. I remember that day so well; it had been the opening of the deli. Stephen looked so happy, so excited. I remember watching him like I always did; you know when he didn't know I was. His face was a picture, his smile was beaming; I felt so warm inside from seeing him like that – I felt proud of him, how could I not?

He was his own boss he was making something of himself and it suited him, after watching him for near on thirty minutes, I entered carter and hay and ordered a house special of the day which was a sienna Panini. Stephen of course didn't serve me; he gave me a look as if to say

"What're you doing here?"

Which is why I watched him for so long, I knew that once he'd seen me his smile would fade, and I was right. It did. But I had to come here, I had to congratulate him on the grand opening, I knew how important this was to him. I didn't stay in to eat, I took it away. I didn't wanna stay somewhere where I wasn't welcome. Plus I wasn't really that hungry anyway, at least not after that reception.

I couldn't blame him I guess, he found out about my interference with carter and hay and he told me he wanted nothing more to do with me, it bothered me and hurt me greatly but I made out it didn't; I didn't let him see what it did to me when he spoke like that, what would have been the point? We were always this way together, we'd be okay, we always were!

I wondered how his first day had gone, if it had been busy, did he enjoy it? But now I had no way of knowing, we weren't exactly on speaking terms and he'd told me so many times to stop stalking him. I had to wait for fate to play a part. So when he walked into ChezChez that night, I couldn't help but smile to myself.

He looked great, he always did these days. I remember when I first met him, he had no taste in clothes at all, he'd grown in so many ways since then. Douglas wasn't far behind him, god do they always have to be together? I saw that Riley was with them too, I noticed a lot that night, the looks Douglas would give Stephen, the little touches on the arm and knee, I felt like I was going to explode.

They were all having a great time, laughing so much, I felt jealous I couldn't help it. I kept my distance and I didn't let him see me but I didn't take my eyes off him for a second. I could see there was more than just friendship going on, I should have just let them be together, but I couldn't.

Douglas wanted him, I knew that but I wanted him too, he was mine first and he was still mine now, I had to do something. I walked over to them and asked Stephen if I could talk to him in private. He refused at first but I told him I wouldn't leave him be until he talked to me.

He looked a little tipsy, I hoped he wasn't as bad as he looked as I needed to speak to him. When we got to the office he suddenly looked very aware of the fact that we were alone, he looked nervous and on edge and kept fiddling with his fingers. I told him to relax but he just asked me what I wanted so I gave him all I had to give, I shared everything with him, all of my feelings. I told him how sorry I was for everything, how if I could take it all back I would, the games, all the abuse, broken promises – I even offered to give him carter and hay as a gift.

He asked me why I got involved with carter and hay in the first place, I told him how it was the only way to be in his life again, I could see how I was starting to affect him, his eyes had softened and im sure I could see tears there, I told him I loved him, how I'd always love him and that I'd rather die than spend another day without him. I knew he wanted me still; he wouldn't be here if he didn't.

I knew it would take a while for him to forgive me but I couldn't just sit back and watch Douglas steal him away from me. I moved over towards him and pulled him close, he didn't push me away, he could no longer fight it, he gave himself to me; I kissed him, he kissed me back. I had never felt happiness like that before, all he ever wanted was for me to be honest with him; that was all it took for him to be mine again.

We'd been together ever since, im so in love with him, who'd have thought it? Brendan Brady in love.

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