Hey this is my first Black Magician fanfic. I absolutely fell in love with the characters, but I hate the ending Canvan gave it. So I'm gonna change it! Have fun! May be a little different because I read the books in Polish ;p

Disclaimer: Sadly I don't owe anything, except AU characters.

text - thoughts

text - memories


All was silent. Sonea stared at the three bodies lying before the University. A wave of exhaustion washed over her. She felt no triumph. No pleasure. Just emptiness. She turned to Akkarin.

A smile curled the edge of his lips. His eyes were open, but fixed somewhere beyond her. As she moved, the hands about her wrists loosened and fell away.

"No," she whispered. "Akkarin." Grabbing his hands, she sent her mind inward. Nothing. Not even the slightest spark of life.

He had given her too much power.

He had given her everything.

With shaking hands, Sonea ran her fingers over his face, then bent forward and kissed his lifeless mouth

Then she curled herself around him and began to cry.

It has been two years since the battle with the Ichini. Two freaking years. Sonea lay on her bed in the Black Magician house not even trying to stop the tears from flowing out of the corners of her deep blue eyes. She couldn't forgive him. She refused to do it. He gave me everything and yet left with absolutely nothing. Except Aithne. Her daughter.

Sonea knew she wasn't a good mother. Far from that. She was too deeply wounded. Too depressed to seem to care. And today she felt ashamed. She's only two years old. How could she not be interested in the well being of the child?

"Enough. I won't cry any more. I'm not weak. Akkarin wouldn't want me too. " she said to herself and got up from the wet bed. Sighting she approached the wardrobe and took out the black robe. It always reminded her of him.

Akkarin.

She put it on and opened the door wondering where could Lady Vinara be. She always took care of Aithne for her. She understood. She shoulden't. Feeling more and more bad about herself she went out into the night. Then she felt something knock her out.

Aithne


She opened her eyes and blinked a the rays of light reached them. Sonea sat up wondering what happened. Looking around she was quite shocked to see her old room in Rothen's apartment. She frowned and got up slowly. What is going on? Surely Rothen wouldn't bring me here? Slightly suspicious and confused she turned to the glass mirror that hung on the wall and gasped looking at herself in horror and utter shock. She touched her face i wonder.

"Oh my god," Sonea whispered looking at her seventeen-year-old face. Blinking again a few times she dressed in a simple robe that is laying on the armchair. A moment later there is a knock on the door.

"Come in," she says proud that her voice didn't shake. I gone back in time. But how?. Before she had time to consider that a happy Rothen came in to the small room looking at her with... was that pride?

"Exited? This is your first day as a novice" All Sonea could muster to do is nod. Then she thought a while.

"Um... Rothen? I think I should move to the novice quarters"

Her mentor- soon not to be- looked shocked and wounded.

"I don't want people to start talking", she explained patiently waiting for it to sink it. When it did his mouth was agape.

"Your probably right about that one. I'll arrange it. Now go you have lessons."

Sonea nodded and walked out with a thoughtful look.


She walked in to the class and noticed she was first. She took a place in the front row. This time she intended to show everyone that she is not thinking herself less then they are. The classroom started to fill quickly after the bell ran and Sonea noticed a lot of the novices looking at her with different emotions: disdain, disgust, loathing and hatred. Then Regin came in. Sonea tried to hide her mocking smile and succeeded.

"Alight, today yo are going to learn control. It will take about two weeks. Every single one of you will have their teacher." Rector Jerrik said and started to call names and sending them to different classrooms. When everyone was gone he turned to Sonea and said sharply,"As you have already learnt control you will be staying here. "

Sonea was left alone and had time to think.

What am I going to do when Akkarin is going to read my mind? I have to prevent that somehow but then I won't be his apprentice and.... Kyralia is more important than me. For once I have to think about everyone not only me.

Even if it means loosing her one and only love. Her Akkarin.


Yep short but I don't want it long right now. First chapters are supposed to be short in my opinion.

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