Alright so this is chapters consisting of one-shots that I've been dying to do. I will take request for letters if you have an idea. Don't be shy to just ask me. I love it when I get reviews because they help me improve and always give me new ideas.

Also in different one-shots James or Kendall will be dominant. I will always put which one is dominant

Warnings: Male/Male maybe some adult content later on but for now rated T for swearing.

Disclaimer: I do not nor will I ever own big time rush or the company.

Kendall is Dominant


Angelic

From the moment Kendall met James Diamond in kindergarten, he felt a certain angelic tone around the brunette. Now looking back on it Kendall couldn't imagine a world without the brunette. It goes the same for his two other friends Logan and Carlos, but James had such an effect on him. Sometimes this emotion scared him. He knew he shouldn't feel this way for his best friend, neither the less that feeling never left. So the moment they moved to L.A. Kendall immediately sought out a girlfriend.

Jo Taylor seemed like the perfect girl at first. Soon enough Kendall felt himself maybe just falling for this girl. But that always seemed to fade away when he would come back home and see James sitting on the couch waiting for the blonde.

Now he stood outside a bathroom door, hearing heartbreaking sobs coming from the other side.


Flashback

James awoke to the bright light of the sun. The tall brunette sighed and turned onto his side. He was a little disappointed when he found the bed next to him empty. James stretched and sat up in the bed, slowly swinging his legs over the bed. Quickly, he made his way into the bathroom. James stopped when he saw his complexion in the mirror.

That stupid mirror

From the outside it was easy to hide and put on a fake smile. Only James saw the true unglyness in his body. It almost killed him how much he wanted to rip of his skin and put on a new, more perfect one. Of course no one knew of his problem. Logan was to busy testing new science experiments. Carlos was to distracted chasing the Jennifers and eating corn dogs. And most importantly Kendall, The person he had known since he was five, was always out with Jo.

Jo

It's not that James hated Jo. No, he just hated that Kendall always had plans with Jo. The last time him and Kendall had any alone time was lunch five months ago. Yeah five months ago. Now everything revolved around Jo. James hated it when Kendall would blow him off to go be with Jo. He understood that he wanted to be with his girlfriend, but it was just getting ridiculous.

Slowly the two began to drift apart and become distant. James felt his heart breaking they started dating. Who wouldn't when they see their lifelong crush dating someone else. So ever since then The pretty boy would go straight from school to rocque records to his bedroom, never stopping to talk to anyone. That's when he became curious

From the moment they moved, James had vowed to never look at the comments the band got. He always told himself that their opinion didn't matter as long as he had his friends. But even that didn't seem real anymore. So out of pure loneliness James grabbed his laptop and has regretted it ever since.

At first the comments weren't to bad, just things the band needs to improve on. Then they became personal. Everything James had worked so hard to cover up seemed to come pouring out again.

Now as he stood infront of the mirror he could see all his imperfections. The way his hair covered his eyes. His sunken in cheeks. How imperfect his body looked. How his legs looked abnormally long.

Maybe they were right. Maybe it was true.

James shook his head and stepped in the shower. He was thankful it was a saturday and they had the day off. It didn't take long for him to shower and get dressed. He was downstairs in about an hour. He was a little surprised when he found Carlos and Logan in the kitchen.

"Hey James.'' The said in unison. James nodded and took a seat.

"what are you two doing here. I thought you would be out of here by now.'' James said, looking at the clock.

"We kinda just wanted to chill for a bit. we're gonna go to the new adventure park in an hour. What about you?'' Carlos asked.

"I don't know yet. Probably just stay here or hang by the pool.'' James replied simply.

"Okay. we'll see later then.'' Logan replied.

"Hey have either you seen Kendall?''James asked before leaving.

"I think he went to meet with Jo. He said he really needed to talk to her.'' They answered.

"Oh okay. See you guys later.'' James said quietly, dropping his head, walking out the door.

Within a few minutes James was downstairs taking a seat on a lounge chair. For once it felt like the brunette could just relax until a familiar slap to the face shook him out of his peace.

"Camille'' James whined.

"Hey pretty boy. I need a favor and you owe me.'' Camille explained quickly.

"I owe you for what?'' The taller boy asked.

"You owe me for getting Gustavo to let you have an off day today.'' Camille replied, pulling the other onto his feet.

"Fine.'' James moaned. "What is it?'' He questioned.

"I need you to go over some lines with me.'' Camille said, holding up a script.

"Alright.'' James went to grab the paper but was stopped when Camille grabbed his wrist.

"What?'' He asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Not here. It says in the script that we have to be in a park.'' The smaller brunette exclaimed.

"Camille I don't feel like walking that far.'' James complained.

''Come on it's not that far.'' Camille responded, pulling the brunette towards the Palm Woods park.

"Whatever, let's just get this over with.'' James replied glumly.

"Okay now just read this.'' Camille handed the script and pulled another one out for her. James huffed and stood up straight.

"My dear Allison, Oh how I lo-'' James stopped dead in his tracks, feeling his heart

Shatter

''James, James...JAMES!'' Camille screamed, gaining attention from people around. The actress turned her head to where the pretty boy was looking.

Kendall was kissing Jo.

This kiss wasn't just a peck, no, this lasted more than a few second. James couldn't bear it anymore and ran off.

As he entered his room, his lungs burned like they had been set on fire. James slammed the conjoining bathroom door, sliding down door and finally letting the tears fall down...

End of flashback


Kendall was still standing infront of the bathroom door five minutes later. The sobbing still hadn't reduced. Kendall was frozen. He had seen the brunette run off when he was at the park. Kendall's eyes got darker at the thought.

HER

Jo had come onto Kendall. The blonde had ask Jo to meet him at the park because he couldn't keep lying to himself. He didn't want to use her as a distraction anymore and knew it was best to brake it off. But the moment those words left his mouth Jo had thrown herself at him. He arms wrapped around his in a death grip as she attack his lips. He could see out of the corner of his eye his best friend. The look on his face told Kendall everything and felt his heart ache when James ran off. He immediately pushed Jo off and ran after James, thankful that Camille had been there and stopped Jo from coming after Kendall.

Kendall shook his head and focused on the door separating him from the sobbing boy. Finally the adrenaline kicked in and Kendall approached the door, knocking softly.

''James, please open up. It's me Kendall. Please.'' Kendall begged. Instantly the crying stopped and there was now complete silence. Kendall sighed and felt for the key on top of the door. He grabbed the key and unlocked the bathroom door. when he opened the door his heart broke into a million pieces.

James was curled up in a ball near the bathtub, his knees were pulled up to his chest and his head was buried in his knees. Kendall hesitantly took a step further and dropped to the ground infront of the broken boy. His heart sunk even more when he touched James shoulder and he flinched.

"James I-'' He was cut off when James looked up.

"No, I-I know Wh-what I saw. I kn-knew I n-never h-had a chance. I-I'm not s-stupid. I-I knew y-you would n-never love m-m-me.'' James sobbed, never breaking eye contact with the blonde. "You p-prob-bably hate me now.'' James cried.

"James-''

"Just stop. I-I don't want any-'' This time James was the one to be cut off. He didn't even realize the blonde was kissing him until he felt Kendall move against him. Kendall was the first to break it off.

"James listen, I went to the park today to break up with Jo.'' This made James raise a confused brow. ''When I told her that I wanted to break it off she attacked me and tried kissing me. I could see you and that broke my heart. From the time I was thirteen I knew you were the one for me. I love you James Diamond.''

James was completely shocked, the person he loved the most loved him back. He bit his lip and looked into Kendall's deep green eyes. He saw honest, trust, and..love.

"You really mean it?'' James asked timidly

"With all me heart.'' Kendall replied. Kendall leaned forward and pulled the boy into a hug, earning a wince from the other. Kendall pulled back and gave him a questioning look and was given his answer when he James grabbed his left hand. That's when he saw the blood.

Kendall gasped a little before immediately picking James off the floor and setting him on the counter.

"James why did you do this?'' Kendall questioned. James dropped his head and felt a tear slip down his face. The tear was whisked away gently as Kendall ran his thumb over his cheek, then lifted his head to meet his concerned eyes.

James sighed as he saw there was no avoiding this question. ''I was really upset and I was hurting so much. Everyday I looked in the mirror and hated what I saw. I never thought you would ever be mine and that hurt more than anything. I couldn't stand the thought that you and Jo had kissed and I punched the mirror.'' James explained, tears springing to eyes. "Now I'm even more ugly.'' He said looking down at the deep cuts on his hand.''

Kendall couldn't believe what he was hearing. The most beautiful creature on the earth, thinking he was ugly and unwanted.

"James,'' Kendall spoke causing the brunette to look up at him. "You are so beautiful. You don't even know what you do to me. Ever since the first day we met you had this air around you. I can't even explain it, it's angelic. And these cuts are just one more thing to love about you because it tells me how much you love me.'' Kendall replied warmly taking some running alcohol and putting over James hand. The pretty boy winced a little but smiled when Kendall kissed his hand.

"I love you.'' Kendall said, kissing James passionately on the lips.

"I love you too.''


Alright first one done, 25 more to go. If you have any ideas I am always open to them. Thanks for reading hope you enjoyed.

~Mambrino