This Is My Now

Disclaimer:

Sadly, I don't own Twilight. T___T There I said it happy now?? Lol

Summary:

Some parts may be OOC, since it is my story lol. Bella has been moving constantly to new school's, in new towns since she was four. Her mother, Renee was constantly in and out of new boyfriends houses and this didn't bother Bella. That is, it never used to…

Bella is now seventeen and has a whole new way of thinking about things. When her mother is offered a new job in Forks, Bella has an opportunity to see her father and she takes it happily, having not seen him in many years. What happens when, a few days following her arrival there, Doctor Carlisle Cullen pays a surprise visit, and brings with him…his son? What will happen when Renee is heartbroken once again, and wants to escape Forks, but Bella has been falling for her own guy, will she leave and forget the love of her life? Or will she take a stand?? Is Edward really the man of her dreams? Or will she end up just like her mother? Running away from love. Could it be that her very reason for being is the very person who will break her heart??

Pairings: Canon ;) Human Bella/Vampire Edward ftw!! xP


Chapter 1: Familiar Faces

The tears that streamed down my cheeks were beginning to sting as they pulsed from my tear ducts and down my face. My heart was thumping like crazy against my chest and my stomach felt like it had a giant knot inside it, waiting to explode.

'Mom, please, think about this. Mom! I was just starting to make friends for once in my life, mom! Listen to me!'

'Sweetie, I'm sure you can make new friends in your new school'

My mother continued ramming her clothes into her battered red suitcase; never once making eye contact with me. The reason for it's state is simple: She's constantly getting heartbroken. Every time she meets a guy she either gets a separation and runs away or just simply runs away for no reason. This time, it's the second one.

'Why don't you ever think of anyone but yourself' I thought aloud, hoping she didn't hear it.

'Bella, pass me some more things'

'No, mom' I groaned. 'Where are we even going?'

'Oh!' She looked up at me, her face flushed and tear stained. Her eyes gazed into my own. I wasn't sure whether it was a bad thing or a good thing but somewhere, hidden in her expression, was anxiety. Like when you're waiting in line for a ride at a theme park. Or; when you're waiting to get your results for a test you know you've flunked at school. I couldn't quite decide what was going through her mind. Could she actually be excited about something? Especially considering the current situation…

'You see Bella…' that cut me out of my thoughts. My heart skipped a beat when my mother's hand overlapped my own. I sat beside her on the bed that would soon belong to someone else and glared at our hands. I didn't know whether to snatch mine from beneath hers or wait for the explanation.

'We're moving back to Forks'

That was unexpected. My heart hammered against my chest and another tear trickled down my face.

Dad. I can finally see dad again.

'We're…what?' My lips twitched, I had to try so hard to fight a smile. All these years I have been hiding from my own feelings and living the way I thought best for my mom. All I ever wanted was to see my dad again, even just once. But I was so afraid of hurting my mother. Who, by the way, I love more than anyone in the world. Well, it does help that I have no friends to love more than her anyway. I haven't seen my dad since I was about six or seven. I don't remember why I stopped seeing him. I just…did. But as I got older I began to think my life over and making amends with my father was one of the most important things to complete on my to do list.

'Well; I was offered a job in a school near where your father lives…' She began. Something was stirring inside her head. Something that I presume she thought I was going to hate.

I waited impatiently, drumming my free fingers against the bed.

'and?' I finally moaned, my hand twitching beneath hers.

'Well…your father wants you to stay with him for a while, just until I sort out the new house and stuff…and I said yes…now I don't want you to feel deserted its just for a short while I hope…'

My eyes brightened and a smile spread across my face completely against my will.

'You're not mad?' she seemed completely perplexed by my reaction.

I was lost for words. Instead I wrapped my arms around her neck and kissed her cheek happily. More tears straining my eyes.

'Why should I be mad? Finally a place with familiar faces, mom this is awesome!' I squealed.

'Well get packing we-'

And I was off like a rocket. My heart thumping happy tunes against my ribs as I made my way to my bedroom, practically skipping as I made my way to my soon to be empty closet.

Finally things are starting to brighten up around here.


'DAD!' I squealed as I clambered out of the taxi, leaving both a perplexed taxi driver and a startled mother behind.

Charlie opened his arms out to me and I was instantly clutching his jacket, pulling myself closer to him.

'Hey Bells, good to see ya kiddo' He ruffled my hair and I flushed with embarrassment. I had no intention of reacting this way when I first thought over how I was going to make my entrance. But; it'd have to do. I mean, do seventeen year olds normally act this way? Maybe when I was six or seven…ah, who cares. I continued to cling onto my father, despite my internal dilemma.

'I'll miss you mom!' I embraced my mother after she handed Charlie my suitcases and kissed me goodbye. She was crying again. I knew I'd be able to visit her and I'd see her at my new school, but…seeing her weep so much made me weep also.

The house looked exactly the same as it always did. Nothing had moved out of place. And by the looks of the empty pizza packaging on the counter, dad still hadn't learnt to cook edible meals.

'Bells I'm so glad you wanted to stay here…'

I grinned. I loved the way, in this house, there was always a warm feeling in the atmosphere. I always felt wanted here. Like I would be here forever.

'I'm glad you want me to stay'

There was awkward silence after that. I guess, ten years can cause that. I mean, what should we talk about? He barely knows me anymore.

The silence was interrupted by a loud rapping on the front door.

'Who could that be?' Charlie scratched his head.

'I'll get it dad' Okay, weird right? Total automatic response, as if the person at the door was going to recognise me and go "Bella, is your father there?" It could be anyone; I mean, Charlie is the chief of police here in Forks. So…Forks being such a small town and all, it meant he got around a lot and knew almost all the residents here.

Swinging the door open I was about to greet our guest when my breath got caught in my throat and I let out another spontaneous squeal.

'Hey Bella' The largest grin in the world greeted me at the door.

'JACOB!' I jumped automatically into my old friend's arms. He'd gotten so tall. Way taller than he should have, or that's what I thought anyway. I hadn't seen him since I was little. We used to play together over at La Push. I noticed a wheelchair behind Jacob and gasped as I saw Billy staring up at me, his dark eyes welcoming.

'Billy!' I squealed again, clapping my hands, which were still tangled around Jacob's neck. This time I was sort of shocked. I mean, I don't recall Billy ever being in a wheelchair. Charlie feigned going death by putting his hands over his ears and then laughed with Billy and Jacob as he approached me.

'It's nice to see you' Billy smiled warmly, his face crinkling up slightly when he laughed again. What was so funny?

I pulled away from Jacob, staring at him just long enough to realise he was blushing like mad. I stifled a laugh and then made my way to hug Billy around the neck and then pull away and grin at him.

'It feels just like old times' Jacob punched me lightly on the shoulder.

'Yeh, it feels so nice to finally see a set of familiar faces'

Charlie coughed.

'uh…familiar faces who aren't family' I chuckled.


My first night in Charlie's house was just as I remembered it. Charlie sat in the lounge watching the game on TV while I was preparing everything in my room. Which, was exactly as it had been when I'd left it all those years ago. Turning on the computer I felt a sudden buzz of adrenaline rush through me that I hadn't before. I was actually happy. No; excited. Thrilled. Ecstatic. Completely and utterly delighted. I was even excited to go to school.Jacob doesn't go to my school, so no that's not the reason, though he had offered to drive me there tomorrow and I couldn't pass up on the offer. I really didn't want to arrive at my new school in Charlie's police cruiser, that would have scared everyone away for sure. I wonder if anyone knows I'm the chief of police's daughter. That was enough to send a shudder up my spine. It was, after all, a small town.

There was a sudden beep on the monitor and that's when I realized I had an…no…two emails. I wonder who the second is?

Clicking the first I stared at the never ending email. Mom…I rolled my eyes at the longest email in history. I hadn't even been away a whole day yet and she was already paranoid.

So, I began to type, quickly at that, I really didn't want her getting all worked up and turning into a mental patient. Re-reading what I had typed I sighed in content.

Mom,

Calm down please. Yes I'm fine.

No, dad didn't cook for me. We went out for dinner.

Jacob came to visit =D Billy is in a wheelchair! I know I was shocked too.

Mom, remember; when you want to watch a horror film do it in the day.

I'll drop by to visit soon. Yes I miss you.

Love you too.

Bella x

And then I pressed send. Now it was time to check the second email. I didn't recognise the email address. I pressed it anyway; out of curiosity.

Bella!

Hey, it's Jacob.

Just letting you know I'll be there in the morning.

Dad wants to know if you'll be able to visit tomorrow?

Okay…I want to know.

But seriously, he wants Charlie to come too.

Consider it, k?

Well I guess I'll talk to ya later, right?

Wow, he'd really outdone himself. He wasn't an online kind of guy. He was a more talkative kind of person. I checked the time of the email, he'd sent it as soon as he'd gotten home. This made me laugh out loud which was cut off humiliatingly by Charlie knocking on my door.

'Bells, phone call'

'Huh?'

Charlie handed me the phone and I sighed, placing my ear to the receiver.

'Mom, I already told you I have clean-'

I felt my skin heat up furiously. I was giving heat off like a radiator.

'Jacob! No I wasn't going to say that, I was talking about my…oh never mind. What's up?' Okay, that was embarrassing.

'Yeh, I'll ask Charlie, no…yes…what? No. Yes Jacob I will be ready, I don't sleep in like some people' I laughed with Jacob. He was the kind of person you would laugh with even if you were breathing your last breath.

'Yeh, okay, sure, see you tomorrow'

'What's up Bells?' Charlie took the phone from me.

'He wanted to know if we'd be going there for dinner tomorrow? God he's persistent' I smirked.

'He's just so glad you're back, his other friends have been busy lately so he gets bored around La Push, this one time he actually came here just to talk to me, probably hoping I'd had some kind of experience in town while on patrol'

I had to laugh at that, Forks was a very nice town. Very quiet. It just-

Right on queue; soft pitter patters struck my window and I groaned.

-Rains a lot.


'Morning dad' I beamed, handing my dad a plate. He stared at the empty plate and then over at the stove. I rolled my eyes nonchalantly and then returned to the stove.

'Bells…you don't have to'

'No, I want to dad, please' I placed a pancake on his plate and he showed me the biggest grin I'd never thought he was capable of. So big his eyes crinkled making me smile back.

'You definitely got that from your mom'

'Yeh, but I got my determination from you, not many people win in an argument against me' I chuckled.

'Oh is that so?'

'Yeh'

'You sure'

'Yes…dad, stop that' I laughed, stretching out the word dad so it sounded like it had three syllables instead of one.

After somehow managing to eat breakfast with somewhat of an anti-awkward conversation; I managed to clean the dishes in time for Jacob to arrive. Taking one last glance in the mirror; Hair: tangle-free, Red turtle neck sweater and matching jeans; check. I was rushed out the door on the fifth honk.

'What were you doing in there Bells? Throwing your dad an eight course meal?' Jacob laughed.

Bells? Did I hear that right? Dad's nickname for me was now my nickname from everyone…?

'Morning to you too' I yawned. I was still kind of groggy. The rain was really off putting and kept me awake most of the night.

'Sorry; how was your first night back in Forks?' He knew the answer to that, it was clearly written all over my face; but I think he was being polite. That or he really is dull.

'Fine…tiring' I grinned; correcting myself when he narrowed his eyes.

'Yeh. I know, the rain was real bad down in La Push, kept me awake most of the night too'

Yep he knew. Good old Jacob.

'Man, that went quicker than I thought; here we are' Jacob said, only I didn't realize it until he had stepped out of the car and opened up the passenger door. I hadn't even seen us stop. I spent the whole ride staring at his hands turning the steering wheel.

'Uh…thanks' I took a hold on the hand he held out to me and stepped out of the car.

'Um…be careful Bells, don't look now but you've already gathered some admirers' Jacob pointed to the far end of the school car park, where; stood in the direct light from the morning sun; were three guys staring at me like I would disappear if they looked away for even a second. Immediately my face flushed crimson red.

Jacob's hand touched my cheek, startling me.

'You do that a lot you know' he laughed.

I groaned. Today was going to be the longest day in history.

He pulled me in for a tight hug and then let me go. One of the boys, who, from what I could see from this distance had blonde hair, seemed to scowl my way. Or…more like; Jacob's way.

'Hurry up and leave before they mug you' I laughed.

'Sure sure' he embraced me once more and then with a quick good luck he was whizzing out of site.

I turned to face my new school. Praying that it would see me through to graduation. Or at least, my next grade. Then with a sigh, I took another step forward, preparing to do the same thing I have been repeating over and over since I was four.

I was making a fresh start.


So what do you think? I know I know no Edward :O Lol. But I try to do Jacob and Edward so everyone likes it. Jake plays Bella's best friend and familiar face so that during the beginning she has someone to talk to. If you have any suggestions or whatever review or PM me but please REVIEW!! Especially if you want MORE!