Addiction..?

It all started with a kiss from his lips the night of my 25th birthday, I felt a burning passion surge through out my body. I knew this had to be real after that day I longed for him night and day after that. Every time I saw him I looked away embarrassed on how I felt. I didn't want to admit it but it's true and I can't ignore it any longer.

" I love you Gokudera!" I blurted out in the middle of the hall way.

He paused and was silent and without a word he turned his body and looked at me and sighed shaking his head.

Maybe I had taken it too far? I know we can't be together because he has Mukuro. But I don't care I want to have him body and soul and he has to hear me now.

" Look I understand you have him!" I Pointed to Mukuro who was standing right next to him. " But you need me in your life, because there is nobody whose going to love you better like I do. Dammit Gokudera open your eyes ! He's not meant for you because I am!" I stared at him and waited for his reply but the next thing that came out of his mouth was unexpected.

Gokudera chuckled and shrugged. " All big talk about love. Who needs it? Me and my babe aren't doing it for love its addiction. And you Yamamoto you're a pawn to begin with. I hate pawns who talk back. I don't want to see your face ever again.. disgusting piece of shit." G who had been standing there couldn't watch it any longer as he rushed in and slapped Gokudera across his face before he could say anything more. " What the hell has gotten into you Gokudera? Is that anyway to talk to a fellow comrade? A pawn? I know this is none of my business but your making it my freakin' business. Come on Yamamoto let's go!" He turned around to see Yamamoto's head slumped feeling completely shattered to those words. As Dino grabbed his arm and dragged him away as Gokudera and Mukuro watched them leave.

"Hey Yamamoto ! Cheer up Gokudera isn't worth it ! There are plenty of fish in the sea buddy." He patted his back as they both sat on top of hill watching the clouds go by.

" But the only fish I will ever love is him and he told me the night of my birthday that he loved me." I sighed and watched the clouds drift by one by one.

"Hey G.. can you promise me something?"

"Yeah sure buddy what is it?"

" If I die young bury me in satin and sink my body into the sea please."

"What the hell? Are you nuts? You are not going to die young you know why?"

"Why?"

"Because you will be going out with me! And I won't ever let that happen." He grabbed his hand and held it close to his chest. "We will get back at him just you wait he will be crawling back to you."

I turned my head away from him and blushed."Um.. but what if I lose myself again to him? I feel like I am in a trance when we are both alone his sweet alluring words.. mean everything to me.."

"Oh god your not making any sense you idiot!" He slapped him. " Snap out of it this is the only way you will feel better! Look how he treated you! Like trash!"

I sighed and nodded rolling off to lay on my side. It was true I am nothing but a pawn to him can this ever be love? All this thinking is making me stress out I guess its better if I took a quick nap and not think about it anymore.

" You sure are stubborn Yamamoto.. just you wait and see things will get better for me. And before you know it, you will never feel pain again. And Gokudera will be mine.." He looked over at him and smiled at his sleeping face and kissed his cheek.

To be continued…


A/N: Thank you for reading ^.^ ! I was inspired by the song "If I die young" for this chapter.