So Sick.

Takes place after Kyo's true form comes out. Tohru chose Kyo over Yuki and the rat couldn't cope. Based on Ne-Yo's song of the same title. (Warning: Suicide)

Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket and the characters. Ne-Yo's song So Sick is Ne Yo's. Thanks to them for producing such great stufff.

A/N: Song is in italics and Yuki's thoughts in bold. Listen to the song while reading this if you can.


Mmmm mmm yeah

Do do do do do do do-do

Ohh Yeah

Yuki stared at his cell phone. He was still in denial. Tohru had finally made a choice. He knew that she would definitely make a choice one-day. It was not possible to have both and he wasn't willing to share. That's why he's feeling so down now. So sick. Yes like the song.

He would have rather it be someone else and not Kyo if she did choose. He could blame it on the curse and delude himself. Anyhow the delusion would break and he will feel so sick like now. He realized all of this in the back of his mind.

He played the voice message and listened to her voice:

"Yuki-kun, I need to replace a colleague today. I've prepared dinner, onigiri. Yours has leeks, OK?

Sweet. Her voice was so sweet. He closed his eyes and threw is arms back as he leaned on the back of the chair he was sitting on while listening to the radio.

Gotta change my answering machine

Now that I'm alone

Cuz right now it says that we

Can't come to the phone

And I know it makes no sense

Cuz you walked out the door

But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore

(It's ridiculous)

It's been months

And for some reason I just

(Can't get over us)

And I'm stronger than this

(Enough is enough)

No more walkin round

With my head down

I'm so over being blue

Cryin over you

"Yes it's ridiculous," he thought. My love's stronger than my reason. I can't get over this. I'm still walking around with my head down. I'm tired of being sad and being a wimp because I'm weeping over you.

And I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing you were still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?

I'm tired. I'm so worn. The love song you like to hear is making me sick. It's making me shed tears. Damn you!

Gotta fix that calendar I have

That's marked July 15th

Because since there's no more you

There's no more anniversary

I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you

And your memory

And how every song reminds me

Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing you were still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?

Yes, that reminds me to burn my journal. The book of sweet memories now turned into a book of bitterness and despair. It used to make me so happy but now it makes so sick…. Yes burn it cause there's no more Tohru… throw the CDs as well. No more memories no more stupid love songs. Forget what it used to be. There never was any in the first place. I'm a fool.

(Leave me alone)

Leave me alone

(Stupid love songs)

Don't make me think about her smile

Or having my first child

I'm letting go

Turning off the radio

Yuki starts seeing flashbacks. The events of that day until now. It seemed to mock him. Damn flashbacks! Damn memories! Enough! Enough! Her smile. Her voice. My dreams. My life. I'm so sick I'm feeling so sick. I don't want anything to do with you, Honda Tohru… give me back my peace. Return me my sanity.

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing she was still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing she was still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Why can't I turn off the radio?)

Sick! It's sickening! Why do I love you? Why am I even thinking of you? It's burning me. Killing me… Why can't I forget you? Why do I still wish that you were mine? You should be dead in my eyes now… Why!?

And I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishin' you were still here

Honda Tohru, I love you.

Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

Why can't I turn off the radio?

(Why can't I turn off the radio?)

Why can't I turn off the radio?

Why can't I turn myself off?

There was a sound of a click; a surge of pain and everything went dark.


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