Everyone thought he had a crush on me. The way he would follow me around, or stare at me from across the classroom, or try to talk to me even though I had ignored him hundreds of times before. How I would blow him off and he would just keep trying. But he didn't. No crazy life-long crushes. No hoping that he had a chance. Just wishing. Wishing for his best friend back. Best friends since kindergarten. Talking comics and cartoons. Superheroes and supervillains. Doing things best friends do. Then we hit 8th grade. And it changed.

I went from the nobody nerd to the girl with it all. I discovered makeup, and straighteners. I lost my giant glasses and my braces. I got a boyfriend. I became popular and he did not. I played the role of the stupid girlfriend; he played the role of the class clown. I lost my best friend, he found a new one.

Stiles Stilinski thought I forgot about him in 8th grade. But I didn't. He stopped trying, so, so did I. I started ignoring him because he was jealous. I was mad at him, I would have stayed his friend but he left me. So I stayed gone. I became the queen bee. I became the top dog. He was the nerdy nobody now. But then he started to try, but I couldn't forgive him. I just ignored his efforts, so he found Scott. They had always been friends, but never like me and him were. It hurt, that he would just replace me like that. It only re-enforced my desire to shut him out.

But it wasn't until my sophomore year that I figured out why I needed to stay away from him. Because I was hopelessly in love with him. He was just my friend, he did not see me that way, but I think I did. I had started noticing that I glared at him whenever he was talking to that Erica girl; ugh! He probably thought I was glaring at him! I was such an idiot! But it really hit me that this was happening when I decided to kiss him, I mean he was having a panic attack and I guess I just sort of… panicked!

But I had lost him. I loved a boy who thought I hated him. What am I gonna do with myself?

So this is what I got! Should I continue it or leave it as is? Please review!

~The Rag Lady