Not what you wanted at all

A/N: I wrote this while dealing with a few demons in my life and I figured well, what the hell might as well turn it into something useful! R/R lots of love
Freaky!
Not what you wanted at all
By: FreakyDinkyChicky

It's been almost three years now

Since you said goodbye

I tried to smile through the pain

Of seeing you everyday

Knowing you weren't mine

I cried every night

As I listened to our song

Soon the pain became numb

I followed everyone's advice

I tried to move on

I tried to forget

Eventually I moved on

But I never forgot

Occasionally at night I'd let the pain seep in

And I'd vent my frustrations

Through the tears that fell on my pillow

I wonder now, if you ever felt the same way

Do you regret us being apart?

Have you moved on?

Have you forgotten?

I write this now out of the pain I've been feeling

It's that time of the year where I feel the most alone

I don't want to be alone anymore

I've changed since you've seen me last

Maybe I'm better for you now then I was back then

Or maybe I'm not what you wanted at all…

Marie driedher tears and carefully folded the paper and placed it into an envelope. She licked the back and closed it. She carefully took the pen back into her hand and scribbled Logan's name on the front. She breathed a deep breath, and stood and left her room. She walked the silent corridors; no one would be awake at 12:09am, but still silence was important. She tiptoed to Logan's door and slid the envelope under the door. She let another tear fall before she slowly turned and made her way back to her room. She prayed Logan would read it and maybe come forward about what he was feeling, and the thought almost brought a smile to her lips but her face never got the hint to let the smile show. She opened the door to her room, and quietly made her way to her bed where she would spend another night with the past and her heart wrenched sobs of love lost.

A/N: I know it's sad but it's very personal. I wrote this at 12:09AM on December 9th, 2004. After waking up from a dream about a past boyfriend who dumped me, he was the first boy I actually loved and the things I wrote were from the heart, and were things I've actually gone through. Like ..."listening to our song" "Come what may" from Moulin Rouge sung by Nicole Kidman and Ewan McGregor. Love is a hard thing to get over and Marie is now experiencing that, as she deals with her break up with Logan. Please let me know what you think! R/R

Later dayz