One Shot
The One Thing Edward Cannot Do
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this one shot.
She sits there prepared for the transformation, however painful it maybe.
She does not understand what she is giving up, what she is losing. She keeps saying that she will be fine as long as she can spend eternity with me. This is the only way we can spend forever together.
I lean to kiss her; to feel the rush of warmth against my cool lips, just one last time. I press her close to me, her body shivering as my cold arms wrap about her. I bring my lips to her neck. My teeth brush against her skin sending a slight shiver down her spine.
I cannot be the one that does this to her. I cannot strip her life from her, no matter how ready she thinks she is. I cannot allow her to become a monster like myself. Not at this young age, not when she has so much to look forward to. I curse myself for ever causing her to even consider this deadly path, this damnation.
I pull her away, and look into her eyes, searching for what she might be thinking. Her beautiful eyes stare back into mine as she notices the darkness in them. Her scent is evermore alluring; a hint of fear is present, causing me to hate myself. I am the reason for her fear. I pull away from the embrace, and she looks at me questioningly.
She approaches me, eyes turning soft. "Edward, this is the only way we can be together forever," she pleads with me; her voice seducing. "Please, for me?" Her eyes are now pleading with mine; does she realize how she makes me feel?
"I want this," she reassures me. It seems as though her scent becomes stronger, or I am becoming weaker.
I am thirsty and she is throwing herself at me. I must fight this. I cannot take her flaws, her humanity, away from her. I love her humanity. Her flaws are what make her perfect.
She settles herself next to me, close enough to have her scent engulf me. My thoughts are starting to belong to the beast inside of me. I can feel my control slipping.
"Please?" she whispers into my ear; the warmth of her breath dancing about my neck. How am I supposed to resist her? Does she know how this is torturing me? I do know not how much more I can take. Why must she tempt me?
She leans in to kiss me, but I pull away settling in a chair across from her. This enticement is getting impossible to resist. She gazes towards me, curious as to why I ran away from her.
"A few days of pain are worth lifetimes with you."
"No. I cannot…" my voice is weak even to my own ears.
"I love you. I want this… for us."
Why does she not recognize that it is because I love her that I cannot allow her to transform into a creature like me?
"You told me you would after my senior year."
"I thought you'd give up. I did not think you'd want it this bad. I thought you'd find someone else by now." I had never told her my one true fear and, yet my one hope, until now.
Her eyes drop to the floor, "I'm sorry" she says just above a whisper.
"Do not be."
"I should not have tried to tempt you that way. I yearn to spend eternity with you. Not with you always protecting me. I… I dream about becoming a vampire, so I may be with you."
I wish she did not waste her dreams on such a foolish thought. She knows too little about being one of us.
I pull her into an embrace. Her scent, once again, overwhelming all else. My mind narrows all thoughts to just one. The very thought that I love her and nothing will harm her if it is up to me.
Author Note: Please to feel free to leave a review I worked on this and would like any feedback; good or bad. This idea came to me on a night that no other inspiration would come.
