Reason

Disclaimer: I do not own Vampire Knight. Sad but true.


Didn't I always claim that I did not intend to live much longer?

My original plan was to die after I kill the vile woman who doomed me into being this bloodsucking animal. But I couldn't even do the only thing that had been on my mind since the moment she sank her fangs onto my neck; destroy her. She was dead. Gone. Broken into a million pieces and disappeared into thin air; and I wasn't the one who killed her.

I was a failure. I failed me. I failed my family. It was like losing the will to breathe. It was like running towards a finish line which suddenly vanishes, and you stop, in the middle of the track, not knowing what you should do next.

So I thought the one right thing to do was to perish. Bid farewell to this cruel world.

But Yuuki refused to let me die. I had made her promise to take my life when the bloodlust within me has completely overtaken me. She told me I was still who I was. That I was still the Zero she knew. She refused to let me die the way I wanted to and there's a part of me that loathed her for that. Couldn't she see that I was too fed up to live? But the look in her pure eyes made me change my mind. I decided to let her have what she wanted. My life was in her hand, it always had been. I didn't mind.

Still, I swore I wouldn't do anything to prolong my time.

So, why was I doing this right now?

I was clinging to Kuran Kaname this very moment; fangs buried inside his neck, sucking his wretched blood, buying myself a little more time. To stay sane. To stay me.

It didn't make sense. At all.

Why did I do that? I was still thinking of a reason. The reason that must be so powerful to make me almost begged the arrogant pureblood.

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knock. knock. knock.

Someone was at my door.

"Come in!" I said, almost reluctantly. I know it's her. Anyone else hardly knocked on my door.

She opened the door, but did not come in. She stood at the doorway instead. She looked at me and said: "Zero, dinner's ready!"

"Alright, thanks, I'll be coming down soon!"

And she gave me her usual smile. The smile.

"Okay, we'll wait for you! Be quick! We're starving," and she closed the door softly behind her, leaving me alone again in my room.

Then it hit me. It was suddenly as clear as her sweet scent.

It's that gentle smile. It's that voice. I couldn't bear losing them. They had kept me alive all these years.

I chuckled and closed my eyes. I felt better now that I knew the reason had been her all along. Yuuki.

I stood up and walked to the door.


Ok...so that's my first fanfic. Forgive me for some grammatical mistakes I probably made and for the simple English. hehe...