It's been about a year and a half since Elliot Stabler turned in his papers and walked out of the squad room for good. Olivia Benson since that time has gotten a new partner and has tried to move on with out her best friend and partner. When he left that day he left a void in her life and especially in her heart. She had feelings for him that she was never been able to express. He walked away from the job and her and she doesn't know if she will ever forgive him for that. She misses him though; she hasn't seen him since the day that made him make the decision to leave the force. The day he was forced to draw his weapon on a young girl, after that he decided it was time for a change.

That day haunted him and that is what ultimately led him to the decision to leave the Special Victims Unit forever.
Liv and her new partner Nick Amaro are in the squad room working on some paper work that they were backed up on due to the holiday break they both took. It's especially hard for Liv during the holidays now because she and Elliot used to exchange gifts and get a drink after their last day of work before their break and so she has been thinking about him a lot.

"Hey Liv are you okay?"

"Yeah Nick I'm fine just a lot on my mind."

"Well if you need to talk I am here" he says with a concerned look on his face.

"Thank you, why don't you go home I can finish this."

"No its fine."

"Go, be with your daughter" she says insistently.

"Are you sure?" he says with a small smirk on his face.

"Go."

Nick leaves and Liv starts to finish the work when she dozes off. She begins to dream.


Dream Sequence

Liv is in the squad room and it is empty. She hears a voice but it's far away so she can't really tell who it is. She listens closely and she begins to recognize the voice, could it be him. No she thinks; it can't be him he's gone.

"Olivia?" the voice calls

"Is that you?" She's still questionable.

"Yes." the voice becomes clearer.

She sees the man's face and its Elliot, she runs over to him and wraps her arms around his neck and he wraps his around her waist. They stand there in an embrace for a few minutes then she pulls back just a little bit.

"I never thought I would see you again" she says as she puts her face to his chest.

"No I could never leave you for good." he kisses her forehead.

"I missed you so much."

"I know I missed you too."

She leans up and kisss him on the lips passionately and then pulled away.

"They gave me a new partner, and I like him, he is a nice guy but you see the thing is, he's not you."

He wipes the tear from her eye and looks into her eyes. "Liv, honey I'm not coming back"

"What? But you are here" she's confused; she doesn't know what to think.

"I'm just here to say goodbye."

"But…but…why?" her voice cracks as she speaks.

He walks away and all she can hear is him saying her name.

"Liv, Liv, Liv….." she begins to pull out of the dream.


She is woken up by someone, it's the captain.

"Liv have you been here all night? "

"Yes, I guess I must have dosed off."

"Go home get some rest."

"Okay"

She is still thinking about that dream. It felt so real. She wants so badly for it to be real. But its not, it was only a dream and now she misses Elliot more than ever.