A Girl Named April
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There was a girl
Named for the fourth month
The month of rain
And dark clouds
And the rain drowned her joy
And ran down her face
And her tears mingled with the rain
And made cracks in her wax mask
And blood started to leak through the cracks
But she just smoothed it over with hard sandpaper
And pasted more wax on
To hide the broken girl underneath
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There was a girl
Named for the fourth month
The month of bright flowers
But the petals of hers were dark and ugly
And ivy climbed up her chest
And crumbled her heart
And constricted her lungs
Til she couldn't breathe
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There was a girl
Named for the fourth month
The month of life
But the girl was dying
She was numb
And her heart had been imprisoned
While her mind was a dark expanse
That stank of blood
And she couldn't inhale
For her lungs were
trapped
in her
own
anxiety
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There was a girl
Named for the fourth month
The month of spring
But the girl was a doll
Lifeless
Her body was a living carcass
Her bones rattled
when she tried to breathe
And her eyes had gone dry
And her breath smelt like
Salt water and stale makeup
And she had already seen her grave
For she was digging it
Herself.
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There was a girl
Named for the fourth month
The month of beauty
So she looked in the mirror
That mirror was her cruel teacher
It showed her the fat in her thighs
And rolls on her stomach
So she didn't eat
Now you could count her ribs
And wrap your hand round her stomach
The mirror taught her how to
Destroy herself
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There was a girl
Named for the fourth month
The month of hope and fresh air
But the girl couldn't breathe
She was suffocating
Drowning in expectations
And failed dreams
But then a drop of sunlight
Fell through the thick grey clouds
And the acid rain
And the girl captured it
And she called it Hope
And she put it into a jar
On her shelf
And she held on to the Hope
That one day
Maybe her
Lungs
Would learn
How to breathe again.
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There was a girl
Named April
The month of dreams
And one day
All her dreams
Came true
And the rain stopped
And the clouds shifted
And she
Could
Finally
Breathe.
