A/N: THE ACCIDENT IN THE CHURCH NEVER HAPPENED IN THIS!!!! AND JOHNNY...GOT OFF ON SELF DEFENSE! THIS IS KINDA AU, ALTERED/SP?/ TO MY LIKING//// FEAR MAH!

Johnny

Dallas Winston...were do I begin? He's my role model, I guess. It's safe to say I worship the guy. I want to be tough and cool like him. Untouchable. Unafraid. But at the end of the day, I'm scared little Johnny Cade. Damn.

Ponyboy on the other hand...I'm pretty sure I love him. I mean...when we were in the church and he held me when I cried...it was amazing! I finally felt like somebody actually cared! He's never hit me. I'll start my story when we were on our way into the movies with Dally...

Ponyboy's hand grasped my upper arm as he pulled my under the fence. I don't know why we were sneaking in, because we had the money, but I guess Dally wanted to feel the thrill of breaking the law that night. I felt myself blush when he touched me, but he wouldn't be able to see it, seen as my skins so dark. I was happy about that. I guess I can thank my father for one thing

Anyway, we sat down, and of course, Dally had to start in on the soc girls in front of us. I didn't like the was he was treating them...kinda like the way my father acted towards my mother.

"C'mon, Dal...leavem' alone!" I tried to keep the quiver out of my voice, and it worked. I felt a little triumphant. He stormed off, and the girl he had been hitting on turned to face me and Ponyboy.

"You gunna start in on us, too?" she snapped. I jumped a bit, and Ponyboy put a hand on my arm. Another blush.

"No," he said. "We may be greasers like Dally, but we ain't gunna harass you. Don't get me wrong...Dally's a good guy when you get to know him."

She rolled her eyes at the last statement, but she smiled at me. I shivered. Her friend turned around.

"Why don't ya'll come sit up here? You can protect us!"

Ponyboy agreed, but I didn't want to. They smelled like...a million flowers. Blech.

When we were walking the girls home, Cherry, the girl who Dally had harrased, asked Ponyboy about Darry.

"He ain't like Soda, and he sure ain't like me! He can't stand me!" he spat. I walked up beside him, on the side that was not occupied by Cherry.

"C'mon, P-Pony, y-y'know that a-ain't true! Y-Yall get along just fine!" I smiled at him. His green-grey eyes turned cold.

"YOU SHUT YOUR MOUTH, JOHNNY CADE!" He yelled in my face. "'CAUSE WE KNOW YOU YOU AIN'T WANTED AT HOME, NEITHER! AND I CAN SEE WHY! YOUR GODDAMN IGNORANT!"

I could feel the tears coming...and sure enough, they started to spill down my face. Usually, I didn't cry so easily, but those words hurt almost as bad as my father's punches, and I cried then. I knew I was shaking and that I probably looked pathetic, but I didn't care. I was hurt.

"P-Pony? Wh-why? Wh-why d-did you s-say th-that?" I whimpered. He looked guilty. So guilty.

"Johnny...J-Johnnycakes, I didn't mean it." He tried to touch me, but I flinched away. I was scared of him after he'd said that.

A/N: first chapter, loves! happy readin'!