AN: I own nothing you recognize, I own my charachter Maggie, i doubt i even own the plot..haha. Read and review!!
Stronger Than Words
I sobbed into my hands as I sat there on the worn out couch, at the weasley home. I felt molly's hand on my back trying to comfort me.
I sobbed even harder
"Maggie dear, why don't you go lie down?" molly suggested
"I don't want to sleep I know I will just dream of him, I don't want to" I said trying to catch my breath.
I felt Ginny next to me take my hand
"Maggie, let's go sit outside, some fresh air will be good" Ginny said pulling me to my feet
we made it outside to the garden, Ginny collapsed next to me on the grass
I felt the tears pouring down my face
"do you want to talk about it..?" Ginny said
I shook my head, I didn't even want to say his name.
"it would be good to get it out" she said
I nodded
"I don't even want to live gin, I just see no point...what's the point? he's gone gin, really gone..
I will never get to see him again, hold his hand, hear his laugh, feel his hug..I-" I started to sob
"Fred loved you, you know."
"I know, but we were suppose to start a life together. and he had to be an idiot and take part in the war...had to.
I hate him for it, and I don't want to hate him for it.. but he left me here alone.. and I have a constant reminder of him just walking around, in George"
"more like snoozing... he's still asleep" Ginny said
"and I feel horrible for feeling like I am the only one who is suffering when I know Fred and George had a bond stronger than Fred and I" I said sniffing
"I just don't know what to do Ginny" I sighed heavily
"my brother would want you to be happy, would want you to live..."
"he's always going to me apart of me gin, especially now" I said looking down at the lump that had started to form in my stomach
"I know, he would want you to live for your child, he will always be looking down on us, no doubt plotting out new pranks to play" Ginny smiled
I nodded crying even more
Ginny grabbed my hand
"what you said at the funeral today was beautiful, Fred would have loved it" Ginny said
"thanks, he would have"
"you going to be okay,?" she said handing me a Kleenex
"there is going to be a hole, inside of me for ever"
"I know, same for me"
Ginny had lost Harry in the same war.
Ron, Percy, Neville, cho, Luna and lee joined the ranks of the dead.
"I think I am going to head in, you going to stay out here?" Ginny said standing up plucking grass from her skirt.
'yeah, for a bit, tell molly not to worry, and I will be in for dinner" I sighed wiping my face
Ginny nodded walking away.
Fred had died two weeks ago, and we had the funeral today. Thankfully the war ended when Harry defeated Voldemort. But we lost so many. Molly lost two sons, well 3 because Harry was always like a son to her.
I sighed looking at the wind blow through the trees, I felt tears pooling in my eyes.
I willed my self not to cry, but it wasn't working I felt the tears fall
"oh Fred...look what I've become, I used to be so strong, but that was only because of you..and now I don't know what to do" I sighed talking to the wind
I felt him in the wind, the wind blew again blowing through my hair
I sobbed
"Fred, I don't know how to be strong, how am I suppose to raise this child with out you?, how am I suppose to ever go near your brother again, without crying
you two look so much alike.." I sighed
the wind shook the trees
"I love you Fred..." I said shaking with tears
"I remember the first time you told me you loved me, the first time you hugged me, it was down right in this garden, just after my 7th year, I found you talking to George
and Harry, and you three were playing around with some of your test products. I sat and watched you. the others went in, you stayed out and sat right next to me
before I knew it I was in your arms, being hugged and then you kissed me. it was the best night of my life.."
I closed my eyes feeling the sun setting on my face
I felt warm suddenly, like arms were around me
I opened my eyes, no one was there..
I felt eyes on me, I turned around to see George leaning against the house
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to disturb you, can I join you?" he said pointing to the spot next to me
I nodded
He sat down next to me, bringing his arms up to rest around his legs.
"it was a beautiful funeral…Fred would have loved it, the fact that it was so sunny today" George said
I nodded, I felt tears going down my face
"Maggie, I know that you won't be able to even look at me for awhile, or want to be near me. But you know you are still one of my best friends. You have been since me and Fred's 1st year at Hogwarts. I am always here for you Maggie." George said, looking at me
"Thank you. I'm doing okay.. I mean I won't be the same ever again. But I can at least work on being okay with the fact the love of my life is gone, and he's never coming back. I will have to learn to move on for the sake of this child. I will have to be strong for this child." I sighed
"it's a big responsibility to take on.."
I nodded
"it is, I am glad I have some people left to help me through this" I said smiling slightly
I was trying so hard to not be bitter about Fred's death, so hard to not hate the man that did it, trying hard to keep every memory I had of Fred with me.
"I think it's time for dinner" George said suddenly standing to his feet
I sighed standing up
George was standing holding open the door for me
I looked back at the trees I felt the wind blow again against my face
I could have sworn I heard Fred's whisper of 'I love you'
I closed my eyes
"I love you too" I whispered back
"you coming?" George said
"yeah" I said following him inside.
The week went by surprisingly slow.George was closing down the other 3W shop, and leaving the one up in diagon alley
I was grateful to help and not have to sit in my now quiet apart mulling over everything and crying my eyes out.
So I was with George at the Diagon Alley location packing up some of the stuff, to put in storage. We had already cleaned out the one in Hogsmeade.
"It will be weird working here again.." George said thoughtfully trailing his hand against the banister.
"I don't know how much inventing I will do, I am only half a brain now" George said trying to make a joke
I felt my self smile.
"I'm sure you'll come up with something, Fred was always saying you had the brilliant ideas and that he was the pretty face that could do the books" I said laughing a bit
Before I knew it, George had his head in his hands at the desk, his shoulders were shaking.
I felt my throat get tight
"oh George" I said reaching out to put my hand on his shoulder
I heard his sobs, come out in short gasps.
"let it out" I said. I knew I was crying now. I was feeling his pain. This wasn't fair to either of us.
"God, Fred was just so stupid, he told me that I had nothing to worry about. That twins didn't die alone, they always died together, I just laughed at him, and told him to hurry back, because we had new products to work on and that he had you to take care of" George said wiping his eyes
"he said he would, and with a pop he was gone, I had gone straight back to work, that whole week, I just kept hoping he'd apparate back. And then I got the news from dad." George said
"I can't even look in the mirror Maggie, all I see is him. And that just makes everything hurt more"
"I know it does George, but he wouldn't want you to be sad, he wouldn't want us to be sad, I know it hurts it is going to hurt for along time, I know I keep telling my self to stay strong…"
"he'd want us to be happy, when we thought about him." George nodded
"yeah, now come on, let's get this finished" I said patting his back and moving back over to the box I was packing up.
alright, it's been awhile since i've posted something like fanfiction a couple years
so i am out of practice..please review! and i will post the next chapter!
-M
