This is my squeal to Making It To The Top. Basically this should pan out to be a real long story. I might not ever post this until I get the first three chapters done. Just so I can keep it at a steady flow. I'm not really sure we're this is going to lead to, but it will in fact be a Sakura Itachi later on. I think (I got the most voting for that). WOOT! Lets get on with the show.
Warnings: Right now just angst
Disclaimer: Naruto is not owned my me. Neither do I own Dancing
I lead them up the stairs to Jiraiya's study, who was now filling the role of Hokage. Well only until someone could take the job permanently. Blondie was so restless in my arms. It was easy to tell she was having some sort of post traumatic stress. Blondie's wound at her neck stopped bleeding, but I poured some of my charka into her body. She calmed, her body completely relaxing into me. I went to knock again when she asked me such a sweet question.
"Can you sing?" Her little voice raspy and cracking.
"Of course. Just not very well." My heart swelled. She wanted my to sing to her. Just like one would to there own child.
"Its good enough for me." She need comfort. Blondie was just about as broken as I was all those years ago. They must have just died. I'll sing for her, she needs it.
Time is gonna take my mindand carry it far away where I can flyThe depth of life will dim my temptation to live for youIf I were to be alone silence would rock my tears'cause it's all about love and I know betterHow life is a waving featherSo I put my arms around you, around youAnd I know that I'll be leaving soonMy eyes are on you they're on youAnd you see that I can't stop shaking
No, I won't step back but I'll look down to hide from your eyes'cause what I feel is so sweet and I'm scared that even my own breathOh could burst it if it were a bubbleAnd I'd better dream if I have to struggleSo I put my arms around you around youAnd I hope that I will do no wrongMy eyes are on you they're on youAnd I hope that you won't hurt meI'm dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with youNo need for anything but musicMusic's the reason why I know time still existsTime still existsTime still existsTime still existsSo I put my arms around you, around youAnd I hope that I will do no wrongMy eyes are on you they're on youAnd I hope that you won't hurt meSo I put my arms around you around youAnd I hope that I will do no wrongMy eyes are on you they're on youAnd I hope that you won't hurt me
Oh, the poor child. She looked peaceful know, content. I could feel the eyes boring into the back of my head. Naruto and Sasuke both knew I couldn't sing when they left. But now I could, I had to. Kunoichi training does have its perks. Learning to sing and dance, not extremely well. I just had to be good enough to entertain a bunch of drunks at clubs. But that was a long, long time ago.
I stopped in front of this huge door, pausing only for slight second. I knocked. I hated coming here. She was everywhere I looked. Warm honey brown eye that assured me that everything would be alright. They've been missing for far to long now.
"Come in" Jiraiya's scruffy voice coming out.
"Is that who I think it is?" Naruto's voice married his confusion. He didn't put two and two together. He was in for a rude awakening.
I said nothing, I'll just let him find out for himself. He was close to Tsunade too, I don't want to watch him cry. Kicking the god forsaken door open; I let them in first. Itachi gave me a calculating look. He was trying to figure me out. It was times like these I was thankful for my mask.
"Otter-san, thank you for your services. If you would go get me Haruno-san."
I remember choosing this mask for Haku. He used the same one. The only difference being his said mist, my said leaf.
"Yes Lord Hokage. What should I do with the girl?"
He stopped, constipating what should be done.
"Is she wounded?"
"Yes." I wanted to keep things short and sweet. I just wanted to leave, really can't he understand why I hate it here?
"Take her to Haruno-san, tell her to keep an eye on her."
I nodded and walked out. As soon as I left I could hear Naruto scream about what happened to me. I just sighed to myself. I guess he's giving me charge of Blondie. I'll have to find out if she was really an orphan. I was home in a matter on minutes, even thought I lived on the other side of the village.
I had to set her onto the ground, just for a second. This was Kakashi's apartment, he bought it from the owner. There were tons of seals, I had to up them up and take them down every time I came and left. Biting my thumb, the blood just slow seeping out. I did a quick couple of hand signs, then click. The door unlocked. Gently picking up my little blonde bundle, I put her on the worn grey couch in the right corner.
My little sanctuary, Kakashi's apartment. In reality its mine now. He left me everything he had. It was kind of a shabby little place, but all the walls where a nice soft greenish color. He was like me, he had no need for to much of anything at home. He was never there. It was a two bedroom apartment. I didn't use his room, I just would sit in there and read.
It was the only room in the house that still really smelled like Kakashi. I walked to the closet in the hallway that lead to both our rooms. I pulled out my old pink comforter. It had it butterflies and flowers embroidered into it. I felt the bitter smile trying to break free onto my face. Repressing it into the back of my mind. It wasn't their fault I was so stupid and naïve.
How was I to know that Itachi never killed anyone? That Sasuke leaving was all part of the "plan". Fucking ANBU, hate 'em. I let the blush pink comforter fall onto Blondie. I ripped my mask off as I walked into my room. It hasn't changed since I was 15, dark burnt orange sheet, (I got them for my birthday from Hinata. She said it went nice with my skin.) All black furniture, black bed, black bookshelf, black nightstand, and a black shelves. They only other color was a bright neon orange set of books on my book self.
I remember the looks people gave me when they found out I was his heir. People whispering that we must have had an "inappropriate relationship". I guess people don't know that your not suppose to talk bad about the dead. This always happened when I thought of the past. I get lost in thought, my mind running in different directions, forgetting what I was doing.
Undressing I stepped into the steamy hot shower. My tense muscles relaxing under the rush of water. I grabbed the dark blue brush that I kept in the shower brushing my hair to the best of my abilities when in a rush. Once I was sure all the caked on blood was washed down the drain, I reached for the blue towel hanging on the rack.
Kakashi had the bathroom done all in blue, I wanted to keep the same theme. I walked into his room and throw myself onto his bed. A bit of a dust cover came up when I hit the bed. But I wouldn't wash the sheets, or his clothes. (What clothes he had.) He would be gone then, really gone. His presence would leave this house, and I'd be alone again.
"Hey Kakashi what should I wear? I mean I haven't seen them in a while. What would you do, sensei?" I do this more than I should. Pretending to talk to your dead ex teacher could get me in a lot of trouble. But it helps. Just like all the cd players I have around the house. Just drown out the silence, its easier to be alone that way.
I don't know why I even bothered asking that question. I only really have four set of outfits. Five sets of ANBU, my two Nurse uniforms, my undercover clothes, and then my four black crop pants that go with my mesh shirts. Not really much of a choice. I can't wear my two uniforms so or my mission stuff, really I'm stuck with option four.
Forcing myself out of his comfy bed, I rush into my room. I open the drawer throwing on my black panties and fix my bindings. I walk over the closet grabbing a pair of the pants that where on the floor. They looked clean so I tossed them on, grabbing the shirt under it I start to walk over the floor length mirror.
I stopped. It hard for me to even look at myself anymore. My face was like stone, I don't think my expression has changed for sometime now. I had dark purple bags under my eyes. It would look like had a broken nose. If my nose wasn't so straight; some might. My skin was a bit washed out looking, I was much to pale. The green in my eyes was even more washed out then my skin. They lacked the luster that they used to hold.
My hair was the biggest problem. It was stringy, and way to oily. It shined, but not in a good way. Like my hair is greasy. Even though I just washed it, well kinda of washed it. The worst though was the small blue diamond in the middle of my forehead. These things can be fixed. I know I promised I wouldn't be so superficial, but it can't be helped. I don't need people to worry for me. It hurts me to see Ino staring at me with guilt in her eyes. Its not her fault everything I love gets torn from me.
I grabbed the some brown box the sat next to the mirror. I sat on my knees, getting ready for my ritual. First concealer under the eyes. Next some powder, and the a little purple liner. Its an easy 3 minute task that keep the sympathetic looks from me. As far as everyone was concerned, I was either the girl who was sleeping with her teacher. Or, this one I hated the most, the poor little girl who lost everything. So you should try to be nice to her.
I put the short hair back in a low ponytail just letting the bangs fall. The only thing I couldn't lie about was my eyes, but the liner helped. Grabbing my book, I got up walking to the door to do my seals. Maybe I'll walk I don't really want to go back there. Maybe… a little voice interrupted my thoughts.
"Will you be back for me later?" She was scared, not wanting to be alone.
"Yes." I wasn't going to say anything else, but I didn't want to deal with her crying. I'm not sure what I would have to do.
"I'll be back to treat your wounds, just sleep. Your welcome to anything in the house." "Just don't leave afterwards, the seals will go off." I added as an after thought.
Running back wasn't hard, the hardest part was going inside. Fuck it, I'm going through the window. I ran right up the side of the building. Once onto the window ledge, I knocked twice and jumped in. Everyone looked at me. The pervert shot me a very sad smile when he saw the book in my hand. It's the same volume he gave me, just a new one. Naruto looked like he was going to burst. Of course he was the first to speak.
"Sakura-chan ..what happened? What can I d.."
"You can't." My answer throw him. He thought I was being harsh. But really I wasn't. Just truthful.
He want to say more, once again Itachi stopped him. I was once again thankful.
"Give it time Naruto. You've been gone for some time now. Things change, people change." Itachi couldn't have said it any better.
"Hello Sakura." Ah Sasuke, how you just don't know how much I would love to rip your face off.
"Hello."
"Now if we're done with catching up, we need to get done to business." Jiraiya sensed the tension and broke it.
"Now you three," Since he wasn't going to be talking to me yet, I sat down and started to read. Yes I really do read them now. "you've been away on this mission for some time now. Everyone thought you Uchihas were missing nins. We're going to have a meeting to tell the people of Konha what has been happening over these past 14 years."
He went on about these thing. Following precedes. I was only kinda of paying attention. Finally he said something to catch my full attention.
"Haruno, you will be watching these three. Making sure that they know about the changes in Konha. Take them two where their things are being held. It will be your job to watch over them. Make them comfortable. They spent far to long away from home to be treated badly."
"Lord Hokage, what about my team? Make sure Neji takes care of them." Neji normal watched my team and trained with them when I have to leave.
"Of course Haruno-san. Don't I always leave Neji in charge of your team?" He was trying to lighten the mood.
Too late you old bastard. Inner-Sakura was making an appearance. I pretty much have her under control now.
"Where will they stay?" I might have a bigger apartment them most single shinobi, but Kakashi's two bedroom apartment can't hold all of us.
"We should stay at the Uchiha complex. I assume that its been properly taken care of in our absence." Sasuke had a good idea, but could he handle being there?
Jiraiya took his into consideration. It made the most sense, the Uchiha complex was huge. Plus their stuff was there.
"That sounds appropriate. You three will accompany Haruno home. She will get her things and take you there. You will keep the girl with you Haruno-san, until we can find her parents. Or get her into a home."
"Yes Lord Hokage" I answered him in the way expected from me. I just wanted to go home and sleep in Kakashi's bed. It looked like that wouldn't be happening.
"Uchiha's and Uzumaki your mission reports are due in one months time. I know you must need the time to complete them. Your all dismissed."
We all left together, in a uncomfortable silence. They followed behind me. I could feel Naruto's charka starting to flare. I kept my nose in my book. I could hear the small gasp of the civilians. It must shock them two see the two Uchiha traitors. I could hear the small comments of "She's just like her teacher." and "Does she have no shame? Walking around reading something like that." Like their Hokage didn't write it.
"Sakura-chan... Are you mad at us?" Naruto's voice sounded desperate. Like a kicked puppy. Too bad he didn't know I liked to kick puppies.
"No, but I. It can't ever go back to the way it was. Ever." Ok, made I couldn't kick a puppy. But I didn't have to pet it.
"But why. We're back. I brought him home, in one piece. Just like I promised."
I suppressed a sigh. I've been doing that much to much lately. I could feel three suppressed chakras. I know them so well that it was pretty much mooch to do so.
"Naruto Itachi was right. Things change, people change. You saw what I did, I'm not the little girl you left years ago. Plus, I have a team that I wouldn't give up for the world. So you can come out now you three."
Sai which Naruto knew, but I had two other members. Mello and Jasper. Mello a six seven broad shoulder, caramel skin, dark brown eyes, and short shaggy brown hair. Then their was Jasper, he was quite petite. He's five two, pale, white hair, and icy blue eyes. Mello's deep booming laugh rang out as he picked me up and spun with me. Jasper just watched with amusement.
"I told you. Ugly would never just leave." Sai, still is an ass. But an emotional ass. He flashed one of his small real smiles he saved just for me, and well Ino.
"Will you have tea with us Capitan?" Jasper asked ever so sweetly. He is such a sweetheart to me. Always trying to make me happy.
" I can't as you see I'm babysitting. Neji will be doing your training for a month." Mello sat me on his right shoulder. My little make shift family, the only people that I keep I keep close. And even they're at arms length.
"So, this is why you don't want us around?" Sasuke didn't mean it to come off as it did, at least I hope.
"Sasuke, don't start this now." I felt my teams chakra flare, Sai's in particular. He's the only one that has seen me cry. And it was over them.
"She's right. This is not the place, nor the time." Itachi just seemed to be the word of reason in their little group.
"We'll walk you home Ugly."
"That's not needed. But its very fine with me." I made a point of saying more to them.
My dear team that tried so very hard to keep me together after Kakashi's death. I put my elbow on Mello's head, as his hand rested on my thigh. Keeping me steady as he walked. I flipped the book in my hand back open and began to read. Moments like these, I liked, I lived for them. Its not happiness, but I'm content. That's good enough for me.
My team leading Itachi, Sasuke, and Naruto to Kakashi's. This would be an interesting couple of weeks.
This was a pretty long chapter. I'll try to keep this not complicated. Remember that this is from Sakura's point of view. This is her mind, and so it will be a little weird to read. Cause I'm gonna make Sakura a bit crazy. A lot of thing she'll do will be on an auto pilot type deal, so I might have to go out into someone else point of view.
Sakura doesn't really see what she has still. Like her own team, and her other friends, ex. Ino. So you'll she her change slowly.
