Welcome to tonight's story, this will be a two shot, maybe even a three shot but chapter two won't be until January or possibly February probably.

Legal: I own nothing but the idea

Important things to know before reading:

*Clare is pregnant with Eli's baby and this starts about 3 weeks after Drew found out he was not the father

*Adam is alive, he broke up with Becky during the summer and Adam began dating Maya

*There was no Paris trip and Zoe does not exist

*Drew is not dating Becky

That should do it the rest will be explained in this first chapter so enjoy.

Ch. 1 Not Every Tear Means You're Going to Cry

(CLARE)

"Are you sure that Owen won't mind that I'm coming to the housewarming?" I question Tristan as I drive us to Owen's new apartment.

"No he won't mind, he knows we've become friends," Tris assures me with a grin and I smile back.

Tris and I seem like unlikely friends but it all began about three weeks ago. After a very tense student council meeting with Drew I left near tears and went out back, crying in the shade at the back of the school. I was bawling and didn't hear Tris approach until he spoke. He asked why I was upset but he already guessed it was about Drew, the whole school new I was pregnant and had originally thought Drew was the father but then discovered Eli had to be there father. Drew had been so happy when he thought he was the dad and I was trying to figure out how to tell him he wasn't the dad when I mistakenly told Alli, who decided she had the right to tell Dallas and he told Drew and then Drew exploded. He was so angry and now his animosity toward me is so strong we can barely be in the same room together. Adam did his best to stay neutral and didn't really blame anyone all though he wasn't on the best terms with Dallas or Alli at the moment.

After pouring my heart out to Tris he was actually quite comforting. It was nice to talk to someone who was totally outside the situation. Tris and I began hanging out a lot, and since Tris is best friends with Maya who is dating my male best friend the four of us hung out quite often and always ate lunch together. I'd been hanging out with Tris more than pretty much everyone these last few weeks. However I had not seen Owen at all in that time so I was a little surprised when Tris invited me to Owen's housewarming at his new apartment.

I park in front of the apartment building and get out with Tris. We grab the housewarming gifts and I follow Tris inside to the elevator. Tris knows where he's going so I follow him and he knocks on an apartment door. A moment later it's opened by Tris and Owen's Mom, I have met their parents because I go there with Adam and Maya for movie night a lot since we no longer do it at the Torres house.

"Hi Honey, hi Clare," Emily smiles hugging her youngest son before hugging me.

"Hi Emily," I grin walking into the apartment. There's a small table with other presents so we set our presents on that.

"Hey little bro," Owen smiles hugging Tristan, "hey Clare."

"Hi Owen, I hope you don't mind my crashing the housewarming."

"Not at all Tris told me that you've become close," Owen smiles.

"Yeah and I hear that my ex-fiancé and his billet brother have been real assholes," Bianca comments coming over and putting her arm around Owen's shoulders.

"Yeah they are. It's nice to see you again Bianca," I smile.

"And me?" Fitz asks coming between Bianca and Owen.

"I didn't even know you were still around but it is good to see you," I grin.

"I left The Dot after the incident at your house and Father Greg got me a job at a preschool. I actually love working with little kids," Fitz tells me.

"Hey that's great," I grin as Tris hands me a bottle of water to drink.

I spend most of the party with Fitz, Bianca, Owen and Tris. We fill them in on everything that's been happening at school, I talk about the pregnancy and I know I'm having a boy. How Eli came back and works at The Dot, it was very tenuous with us when he thought Drew was the dad but he's stepped up. We go to appointments together and we have a strong friendship now but I'm not sure I want anything more than that. Other than us and the Milligan parents the other people here seem to be Owen's friends from Ryerson. Owen's parents are the first to leave the party and then the alcohol comes out; the only ones who don't partake at all are me, Tris and Fitz. I actually spend quite a bit of time talking to Fitz; he's come so far from the bully he once was it's sometimes hard to believe he's the same person.

"I'm back almost every weekend, and now that Owen has his own place I plan to crash here almost as much as I do at Fitz's place. We should hang out," Bianca comments hugging me before I leave.

"Yeah that would be great," I grin.

"You guys are welcome over here anytime," Owen tells us and I smile. I hug Owen and Fitz then Tris and I leave since I promised his parents I'd get him home.

"Thanks for inviting me Tris I had a great time," I say when I drop him at his house.

"It was fun I'll see you at school tomorrow," Tris grins getting out of the car.

I wave to him and when he's safely inside I drive home. I greet my parents when I arrive and go up to my room. Eli calls to say hi and see how I'm doing, he's been pretty attentive since finding out he was the dad. It's nice that he's working so hard however I still haven't totally forgiven him for how he treated me when he found out I was pregnant and thought the baby was Drew's. When I hang up with Eli my phone rings again but it's a number I don't recognize.

"Hello?"

"It's Fitz; I hope you don't mind I got your number from Tris. Well technically Owen got it from Tris but still."

"I don't mind at all it's nice to hear from you."

"Good, I have the day off tomorrow maybe I could pick you up for lunch?"

"That would be nice," I smile.

"Great I'll be in the parking lot when the lunch bell rings. Goodnight Clare."

"Goodnight Fitz see you tomorrow," I grin and hang up the phone before getting ready for bed.

I go to bed thinking about the party today and how much fun I had, and thinking about tomorrow and going to lunch with Fitz. It takes me a while to get to sleep though because I have a pain in my lower back. Everything I've read says lower back pain doesn't start until late in the second trimester unless you're having multiples but it's got to be the pregnancy causing it and I've been feeling it a lot recently. I finally fall asleep and get a few hours but I'm still tired in the morning and take a long shower. When I get to school in the morning I have to walk past Drew and Dallas on the steps but when I get inside Tris, Adam and Maya are on the steps of the foyer and I sit with them.

"Tris was telling us about the party sounds like you had a good time and there was some flirting with Fitz," Maya grins.

"There was, he's taking me to lunch today," I say with a smile.

"Does Eli know?" Adam questions with caution because he's fully aware of the history between Eli, Fitz and I.

"No but I will tell him although Eli can't control who I spend time with."

"We know that but he punched Drew when he found out you'd slept with Drew and he thought Drew was the dad. And he has a pretty bad history with Fitz as it is just break it to him gently."

"It's not like Fitz and I were going to go to The Dot for lunch," I comment apparently just as Alli, Jenna, Drew and Dallas walk in.

"Clare you're going out with Fitz?" Jenna exclaims.

"Since when and why didn't you tell us?" Alli questions while Drew just gives me a look.

"It's one lunch and we saw each other at Owen's housewarming party, he called me after and asked me to lunch there's nothing to tell yet. I need to go to my locker I'll see you in class Adam," I comment and stand up. When I stand up the world suddenly vanishes, everything goes black and I start to fall to the ground.

"Whoa," several voices say at once but I can't pick out who says it and they sound far away and almost like they're under water. I don't hit the floor however as a bunch of people catch me at once.

"Clare are you okay?" Adam asks as I get set gently on the steps again.

"Yeah I'm fine, just stood up to fast. I'm alright honestly," I assure everyone.

"Happened to me too when I was pregnant there's a lot going on in her body," Jenna says and whoever is holding me lets go of me.

"I'm okay and I still need to go to my locker," I remind them.

"Come on I'll go with you," Adam offers. He and Tris each take one of my arms and stands up bringing me up with them.

Adam and I walk to my locker and I'm fine for the rest of the morning. After second period I stash my backpack in my locker and go out front where I see Fitz in his car. Fitz smiles at me when I get in the car and we eat at a little Italian café not too far from the school. We talk a little but mostly eat in silence; still it's nice to just be together. Fitz has a calming presence and every time he smiles at me I can't help but smile back.

"I had a nice time and I'd like to take you out again," Fitz says when we takes me back to the school.

"I'd like that too but I'm going to have to tell Eli about us. This is his son too and he has a right to know who I'm hanging out with."

"You don't think Eli will take it very well?"

"I don't know and I don't really care how he does take it, he has a right to know who I'm keeping company with but he can't control it. I'll talk to him after school just before student council. I'll call you later tonight or tomorrow and we can talk about going out, maybe an actual date involving dinner and dancing?"

"Sure if that's what you'd like," Fitz smiles.

"It is and thanks for lunch, I'll talk to you soon," I tell him placing a soft kiss on his cheek.

I get out of the car and go into the school and to my locker. I tell Adam, Maya & Tris about lunch with Fitz before the bell rings. Unfortunately Drew and Dallas are both in my afternoon classes. At least Alli's in third period with us as a buffer and Adam is in 4th period with us.

"I'm going to tell Eli about Fitz, I'll be at student council as soon as I'm done," I tell Drew and Dallas although I'm looking at and speaking to Adam and not them.

"You want some company?" Adam offers.

"No I'll be okay Eli won't hit me," I reply. I walk to The Dot and Eli's behind the counter. "Hey can you take a short break?" I question and Eli looks at Spinner.

"Go ahead," Spinner nods. Eli and I walk outside and around the back and I sit on the steps that lead up to Above the Dot.

"I'm only telling you this because you're the baby's father and so you have a right to know but anything you say isn't going to change my mind."

"Okay," Eli says slowly.

"I went with Tris to Owen's housewarming and Fitz was there. We talked a lot and he took me to lunch today and we had a good time and we're going out again. Just a date it doesn't mean anything yet but it might lead to something."

"How can go out with Fitz again?"

"I know you don't like him but he's grown up a lot. He's not the bully he was, he's matured and he's sweet and I like spending time with him. You don't have to like it but you also don't get to control who I hang out with."

"Just be careful okay that is still my baby in there," Eli says putting his hand on my belly.

"I'll be careful right now I need to get student council and you should probably get back to work," I comment standing up slowly and rubbing my lower back.

"You okay?"

"Yeah just got a pain that I keep feeling in my lower back near the hip, I'll talk to the doctor about it at our next appointment," I tell him and he nods. I wave to him as he goes in through the back and I walk back to school.

"So how'd Eli take it?" Jenna questions.

"He wasn't thrilled but he just said to be careful," I reply.

"Okay Connor how's the treasury looking?" Drew asks getting down to business.

Connor talks a while and then Jenna gets started on new business. While Jenna's talking I'm looking over the proposed social calendar Alli made and suddenly a drop of blood falls onto the paper. I stifle a gasp and brush a finger under my nose, when I see that my nose is bleeding I get up from the table quickly.

"Excuse me," I say walking to the door and holding a hand over my mouth so it looks like I'm about to be sick rather than having a bloody nose.

I run to the girl's washroom and grab a paper towel, my nose won't stop bleeding and it quickly soaks through the paper towel. I grab a wad of paper towels and run out to my car. A terrible thought occurs to me as I realize the pain in my back, the dizziness and bloody nose may very well mean something else.

"Clare what's wrong?" Tris calls after me.

"I'm worried I relapsed I have to go to the hospital," I tell him and he sees the blood soaked paper towels.

"I'll drive, where are your keys?" He asks.

"In my purse, still in student council," I tell him as I realize I ran out without grabbing my purse

"Okay just stay here I'll go get your purse and tell them you're not feeling well."

I nod and lean against my car, Tris returns in a few moments he has my purse and my backpack. Tris tells me that Alli and Jenna want me to call them later and hope that I feel better. He gets in the driver's side and begins driving.

"Don't go to Toronto Western; actually don't go to any hospital in Toronto. Just drive, I want to go to a hospital far from here," I instruct Tris.

"Okay but are you sure? You seem to be bleeding a lot," Tris comments.

"Yes I'm sure if I go to Toronto Western they'll call my parents it's where I had treatment and they consult with other hospitals in the greater Toronto area. I don't want my mom to know I don't want her to start freaking out I just want to figure out what's going on first," I tell him as I take a box of tissues from the glovebox.

Tris gets on the highway and begins driving north east, he keeps driving until we reach Oshawa and he gets off when he sees a sign for a hospital. We follow the signs, Tris parks and I we go into emergency.

"I need to go to obstetrics or oncology I think," I tell the nurse behind the desk.

"If you're pregnant they'll take to obstetrics first," she replies.

"She's eighteen weeks," Tris answers for me.

"Eddie take her up to obstetrics," the nurse says grabbing some gauze for my nose.

They take me up to obstetrics and check me in. I'm given a gown to change into and cotton is stuck into my nose, to catch the blood. I wash my hands and change into the gown with a little help from Tris. A nurse comes in and puts a monitor on my belly, then a technician comes in and does an ultrasound and tells me the baby is fine which is a huge relief but I'm still terrified and my nose is still bleeding. I'm transferred up to oncology and a doctor comes in and looks at my bloody nose, when I tell them it's been bleeding for an hour and my history of cancer they pack it with special cotton and take me for an CT, just of my head so they can look at my nose but minimal radiation risk to the baby. I have all my medical records on a USB on my purse so I give it to the nurse. By the time I'm back in the room with Tris my nose has finally stopped bleeding. There's a knock at the door and another doctor comes in, an older gentleman with graying hair.

"Hello Clare I'm Doctor Gibbons head of oncology," he says shaking my hand and then looks at Tris, "are you the father?"

"No just a good friend I'm Tristan," he introduces himself and shakes the doctor's hand.

"Well I'm glad Clare has support, so I just had a look at your MRI. The good news is there are no tumors in your neck or head and your lymph nodes are not swollen. That does not rule out a relapse however. I understand you only went into remission in August?"

"Yes, the pregnancy was a shock, I was told I'd have to go off my meds or it could kill the baby so I went off them. I had two months left of maintenance meds."

"Okay how about any other symptoms besides the nose bleed?"

"Yeah but I'd attributed it all to the pregnancy."

"What have you been feeling?"

"Some fatigue, pain in my lower back near my hip and I almost passed out this morning," I tell him.

"Show me where you've been feeling the pain," he tells me. I get off the table and show him where I've been feeling the pain and he feels around. "Alright I'm going to have you admitted, I know you're eighteen so we don't have to alert your parents if you don't want," he says and I shake my head. "I do feel a mass in that area so we're going to do a biopsy and then draw some blood. We'll keep you here until the results come back and then send you home or transfer you to a hospital in Toronto if necessary. Because you're pregnant we'll have a fetal monitor brought in so we can monitor the baby. A nurse will be in shortly to get you settled and take some blood."

"Should I call your parents?" Tris questions when the doctor leaves.

"Yeah but just tell them I'm sleeping at your house," I reply.

"You want me to call anyone else?" Tris asks and I burst into tears because the thought that the cancer has returned has me petrified, I could lose my baby and I could die.

(TRISTAN)

I put my arm around Clare and sit with her until the nurse comes in and Clare wipes her tears away. I ask her if she wants me to stay while they draw blood and she shakes her head. The nurse tells me she's being sent for an MRI of her hip area where she feels the pain after her blood is drawn and will be out of her room for about thirty minutes. I go out to a waiting room so I can call people. I call Clare's mom and tell her she's sleeping at our place for a couple of nights and then I call my mom and tell her I'm spending the night at Owen's and then I call Owen.

"What's up little bro?"

"I told Mom I was sleeping at your place tonight and I told Clare's mom she was sleeping at our house for a couple of nights."

"What's going on Tris?" Owen questions.

"Clare's in the hospital in Oshawa, her nose was bleeding it bled for the whole drive but she didn't want to go to the hospital in Toronto. They think her cancer might have returned, they said the baby is okay but they're taking blood and then she needs an MRI and a biopsy. She's terrified Owen and so am I."

"Which hospital are you at? I'm coming and I'll call Fitz I'm sure he'll want to come too."

"Lakeridge she's in the oncology ward. I have to call Eli it's his baby and I'll call Adam too."

"Yeah we'll see you in a bit," Owen says and hangs up. I take my phone from ear and find Eli's number in my contacts.

"Hey Tris what's up?"

"Don't freak out but I'm at the hospital with Clare but it's not the baby the baby is fine," I assure him.

"Then why is she in the hospital?"

"Her nose was bleeding she thought the cancer might have returned and the doctor thinks so too. She's going to be checked in for a couple of days and they're running some tests."

I tell Eli what hospital we're at and tell him I was going to call Adam. Eli says he's on his way and he'll call Adam so I hang up and go back to Clare's room. She returns after a while and they put her in the hospital bed and then they bring her in some food but she's not hungry so I eat it instead. Clare just sits in the hospital bed looking at the wall, I can see the terror in her eyes but she's not crying. Actually she doesn't move at all until Owen and Fitz run into the room.

"What are you doing here?"

"Tris called we were worried," Owen tells her as Fitz sits on her bed.

"Have the doctor's told you anything yet?" Fitz asks after kissing her hand.

"No they did an MRI because the doctor felt a mass where I'd been having pain and they needed to know where to do the biopsy. They did the biopsy and then brought me back and they haven't been back in," Clare tells them and then Eli comes in.

"What have they said? What did they say about the baby?" Eli asks.

"The baby is fine, they haven't told me anything yet," Clare tells him.

"Are you sure the baby is okay?" Eli questions.

"If the baby wasn't okay she'd be in obstetrics and not in oncology," I comment and Eli nods.

"Adam couldn't come but he wanted me to send his love and hopes that you're okay," Eli tells her and Clare smiles.

"Hi Clare and everyone," Dr. Gibbons says as he comes back in the room.

"This is my brother Owen and our friend Fitz and that's Eli the baby's father."

"It's nice to meet you all. Okay Clare we did the biopsy but as I'm sure you remember the results won't be back for a couple of days. We did ask them to rush it but it will still take some time. However your MRI revealed something else, not only is there a mass on your ilium or hip bone. We also found a mass on your back a few inches from your T9 which according to your medical records is where the original cancerous tumor was. What this means is that it's likely that you relapsed after going off you meds and with a tumor on your bone the cancer metastasized. Now don't freak out yet because we can't be a hundred percent positive of this until the test results come back," the doctor tells us and Clare nods curling up her knees and tears start streaking her cheeks.

"The MRI did it hurt the baby? How will these tests affect the baby? If she needs treatment will it harm the baby?" Eli questions.

"The MRI did not hurt the baby and neither did the tests we are monitoring the baby to make sure it's not in distress. We'll discuss what will happen with the treatment when we get the test results back and we know that she needs it," the doctor answers as Fitz puts his arm around Clare and she cries on his shoulder.

"Doc I know it's past visiting hours but we'd like to stay," Fitz speaks up.

"It's alright for tonight as long as you stay out of the way of the doctors. Clare you should try and get some rest," the doctor says before leaving.

"You need anything Clare?" Owen asks her but she shakes her head still crying on Fitz's shoulder and he's holding her.

"The baby is okay it'll be okay," Eli comments.

"You'll be fine, you beat cancer once you can do it again," Fitz assures her and she takes his hand.

"You'll get through this Clare and we'll all help you fight," I tell her and she smiles at me.

"I'm glad we're friends Tris I'm going to need you, all of you, if the cancer is back."

The update will pick up probably with them finding out about the test results. So chapter 2 will be some time in January or possibly February I will work on both of those calendars sometime next week.