The Many Realities I Have Lived In
Chapter 1: My Life in Panem
Disclaimer: I don't own the Hunger Games.
Katniss Everdeen jolted up. She sat up in her bed at her new house in Victor's Village. She immediatly out of habit looked around to see if there were any tracker jackers. She was very confused for some reason but couldn't put her finger on it. She felt like she was just in the Hunger Games, running from the tracker jackers.
"Bad dream, I suppose," Katniss muttered to herself. She stretched her arms out as far as she could, blinking and yawning and then stood up to walk to the bathroom.
She took a quick shower, pulled her hair in her signature braid and strolled down the stairs of her house in the Victor's Village. Her mom must've been cleaning or healing someone because it was tense as she heard her mom ordering Prim to get some sort of medicine.
The Girl on Fire decided not to check what they were doing and headed out the door to see if Haymitch was awake. She swung open the wooden door and found Haymitch knocked out as he sat on a chair, his face against the dark table, his hand clinging to a bottle of who knows what and a knife in the other. Katniss sighed as she turned around to jog outside once more but bumped into Peeta.
"Oh, hi," Katniss said as she stepped away from Peeta. "Sorry, I wasn't watching."
Peeta and her were considered married in Panem now to represent the "love" they had shared in the games, to cover up the act of rebellion with the nightlock. They haven't even seen each other for a couple of days, not considering the days when he would bring fresh baked bread over to her house. She didn't know him as much as she liked, even if she did know the deep stuff like his favorite color.
"Hi," Peeta snapped Katniss out of her thoughts.. "I'm just dropping off some bread for Haymitch." He moved from the door and let Katniss walk out of the house, but he felt like he should stop her. He grabbed her shoulder. "Wait, Katniss," he said with a pained expression she hated to see him with, "I know this isn't how we wanted it, but it is, I'm sorry – we should just try to get along."
"I know," Katniss said. She pointed towards the gate. "I should go."
Katniss jogged away and down to the Hob as he left bread at Haymitch's house. She couldn't stand being next to his innocence when she wasn't. She didn't deserve him - even if they didn't talk - that was probably the best she could ever get now.
She had arrived to her destination quickly with no one bothering to stop her, the peacekeepers wouldn't bug her now; she wasn't doing something illegal. Katniss then stopped in her tracks to find a burnt building which use to be the Hob. It was gone, burned to the ground and covered in black ashes. Why'd she come here? To look at all the miseries that awaited her once she found it?
She turned around in circles observing the mess, it wasn't the same anymore; she had to remember, everything was different. She felt an urge to run away and hide somewhere, where no one could get to her, but with her thoughts on bitterness she couldn't escape to a closet and lock herself up. Even if she did do that, her thoughts would just swarm in her mind.
Katniss decided going to her house though to confront whatever was held there. Her feet led her safely there, going behind houses to be safer and was at her house. Her house; her home… She walked inside, her eyes shut for the first second as she closed the door and opened them to find her sister and mother, nonetheless, making medicine.
"Wow," Katniss stated, "I thought you guys were healing someone or something…" She squinted as the word heal came out of her mouth, "I can't watch someone hurt like that, ever." Katniss sat on a chair and found a basket full of cheese buns. She groaned, Peeta must've brought them over. Did he have to be nice to her?
She grabbed one knowing that it still tasted brilliant and stuffed it quickly in her mouth. Only moments later Peeta walked into the house. "Hi," he said sitting down next to her. He held something tightly in his right hand.
"Hi," Katniss stated, "What do you want, Peeta?" She cut straight to the point and waited for a reply. He shook his head and didn't reply. "Really, what's wrong? Do you want me to give you back the cheese buns, I already ate one though." She grabbed the basket and held it out to him.
"I don't want them," he laughed, "I just came here to see you," He paused. "Is that a problem?" Katniss shook her head and stared at him like he just said something crazy, "Well, that's good. Do you want to go for a walk?"
Katniss paused for a minute considering what could go wrong on the walk but then nodded. They left the house, with her mother and Prim staring as they closed the door behind them. They started to wander around District 12, walking behind houses and in front of burnt buildings, everywhere they could go that was possible.
"So," Katniss said as they trekked through the snow, "I'm sorry we haven't talked much. It's just that I know you didn't want this forced, and it was - But I mean I also don't deserve you, you deserve someone better than me." I confessed as I tried to hide my face with my hair but he only brushed it behind my ear.
"I don't deserve you," he said with a sad expression flowing on his face, he usually never showed it so clearly before. "I just hope that we'll be alright after everything happens. I don't want this all to end up in a pile of hatred." He gave a small smile, but it left as quickly as it came. We kept on walking towards nowhere.
We passed the bakery where Peeta goes almost every day to distract himself. When we walked past the sign, my head hit it and she fell blacking out, crumbling towards the snowy floor, the last thing I hear is Peeta's voice calling for me. Suddenly, she awoke in the cave where she spent a couple of days healing Peeta. She turned around and found Peeta staring at her with a confused look.
Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoyed it. Please review, this reality is the slow one, the other ones will be faster so please keep reading. It'll get a lot better, promise! Any criticism or suggestions would be awesome!
