I've Been Thinking

Tales of Symphonia

By Unfinished Song


It's been a while since I started tagging along with these guys. It's strange… they're supposed to be my enemies, the enemies of everyone in Tethe'alla, and yet I can't help but feel sorry for Sylvarant's Chosen, Colette. She can't eat, can't sleep, by Martel she can't even feel anymore or talk!

And I've been thinking and I realized that you, as a Chosen will have to go through the same thing. With each seal you'd release for the sake of Tethe'alla you'd lose a little bit of yourself, a little bit of what makes you human. It doesn't matter that you're an annoying, pig-headed, arrogant jerk that most of the time I just want to strangle for all of the torment you put me through! The thought of you not being able to feel, not being able to sleep, not being able to speak… I can't see that. I don't want to see that!

It's just… I've been thinking about you: a lot. And I wonder if you know all about the stuff you're going to be put through. Everyone is always so thankful for the Chosen and what they do for the sake of the world, but what about the Chosen themselves? If they fail, they die, but if they succeed… I don't like to think of what would happen if you succeeded. I can't help but to think what else Colette might be put through next. How else is she going to suffer for the sake of everyone ?

I've been thinking a lot about that. But more than anything I've found I've been thinking about you. And while I've been thinking I thought of something. Are you so arrogant and aloof so you can shield your heart from the pain you know you'll endure someday? Do you know that when you start your Journey of Regeneration that you'll not be able to do the things you used to anymore?

Is it all a façade so you won't have to feel the pain?

They're silly thoughts. I know I'll take them back the moment you get on my nerves again. You'll probably make me regret ever feeling any sympathy for you but you know… I've been thinking that maybe you're a nice person under that pretty boy face and flirty eyes.

And maybe under those smiles you're afraid because you know.

We'll find out whatever is true eventually. Until then, I'll keep traveling with Lloyd, Genis, Raine, Kratos, and Colette, and I'll watch and see what happens.

And all the while I'll be thinking of you.